Sad and lonely

I am so sick of being lonely and sick of my life in general. I go to school 4 days a week and I don't enjoy it. I go to work 2 days a week and I don't enjoy that either. I go to the gym 6 days a week and I don't particularly enjoy that either but I like the results. I moved to a new city last year and I literally have no friends here. I am tired after school and work and don't know how I am going to meet anyone. I don't have the time or energy to take like an art class or something on top of my schedule that I already do. I have no friends from before because I quit drinking and had to cut a lot of people out of my life that were toxic. I am trying to online date but am not having much luck with it. The guy I was seeing broke up with me last weekend (we werent exclusive anyways) but before that he was constantly blowing me off and making me feel bad. I had two dates set up this weekend but both fell through so I just went to sleep instead. Life is so meaningless without friends and people. I feel like I am always staring at the clock just waiting for whatever I am doing to be over with. I am a pretty, somewhat fit 30 year old female that likes girly stuff like shopping and getting my nails done but even that stuff isn't so fun when you are doing it alone always. I cry every day because I am so lonely. I just don't know what to do anymore at this point. I just want one person who gives a shit whether that be a romantic partner or a good friend. Its hard to get through my day to day things sometimes just because my social needs aren't being met.

Submitted August 25, 2019 at 09:21PM by AcademicBlackberry https://ift.tt/2HroXB7