Background:
I'm an only child with parents who have like 4 siblings each. Both of my mother's and father's siblings have kids who have their own siblings. Basically, my parents are the only ones who has one kid. It was really cool being the only child until I grew up and realized that I missed out on how it feels to have someone to banter around all the time and share life with. My parents pretty much spoiled me with lots of technology and stuff at an early age but I never disappointed them either.
Growing up, I used to hang out with my cousins all the time and we used to be tighter than bark on a tree. I was always seen as the "brightest" among my cousins because I was able to nail all of my subjects in school down easily and I always passed my classes with A's without a hitch. My cousins weren't that interested in school and focused most of their efforts on video games and screwing around outside. The difference between them and I was that I had the perfect balance of getting my stuff together and enjoying my free time.
You may be wondering why I consider myself a "Forever Alone" though. It's the fact that growing up in this transitional generation has been a trip for me. I remember the times when my classmates were sociable and outgoing a lot and always spoke to each other. Ever since stuff like FaceBook and Instagram came out, I noticed a significant change in all of their behaviors. They all became reclusive, always had someone better outside to talk to on their phones, and just had a spontaneous, closed clique now.
I was raised to see that social media has the power to hinder my future progress in my job prospects. What with possible employers being able to research your name and stuff and find whatever posts you had when you were younger. That was enough to convince me that I wanted no part in social media. Most of the efforts placed on social media was diverted to my education and passing my classes. That in turns meant that my social life presence was pretty much dead. Everyone in my classes mainly communicated via Snap/Instagram and I had none.
That didn't stop me from trying to initiate direct conversations or chatter with my classmates. Lots avoided that kind of communication in general unless I was someone they knew from "kindergarten" or whatever. Just a lot of them didn't even want to talk face-to-face and only bothered doing super light, basic chatter. With that, I decided to try other venues. I joined clubs like Business, Drama, Art and Leadership. They were all pretty fun for the years but no one really became friends outside of that save for the small exceptions.
Most of my "friends" in college has this weird habit where they would be friends with each other for the semester, going as far as creating a group chat, but as soon as the semester ends, they all forget about each other and go party with people they know outside of college. A lot blame it on the fact that the college I go to is a "commuter" one. No matter how hard I try remaining in contact with them, they just don't put in the effort for it.
It's not me either. With people around, I basically take center-stage in conversations and bring up a lot of topics that they take on. We go from a wide range between music, movies, video games, politics and philosophy. All of us enjoyed that and we hung out pretty closely. It was all great until the last day of school comes around and suddenly we forgot about each other. It's a really weird phenomena. I keep contact with some of them and they also noticed that. I always preferred talking in-person rather than texting so that was another blow for me.
About Me:
I'm someone that has their future laid out in their mind already. Someway or another, I have always managed to get into the schools I wanted to go to and the hobbies/jobs that I wanted to tackle. That part is easy and set in stone for me. Planning is just something I like doing because I noticed that a lot of my peers lack direction in what they want in life. I don't want to be in that same rut as them so I made it a priority to ensure that everything I do has been thought through and gone over.
Most of my interests are pretty average with the everyday young adults. It's pretty broad enough that I don't feel the need to mention it unless specifically asked for it. The unique ones I do have are my fascination with any form of media from the decades (70's, 80's, 90's, 00's.). Those are the stuff I grew up with mainly so a lot of the stuff I know deeply about are retro. I do hobbies such as directing animations, writing drama scripts, composing music specifically for scenes given, composing shots, and just engaging in deep conversations.
What I want to become is a mogul that alternates between being involved in the business world such as being a CPA and becoming a screenwriter or director in the entertainment industry. I want to become someone that funds small-time projects and indie studios for their efforts.
Forever Alone?
Most of my cousins are now in their early 20's and they're all busy with their lives just as I. The only reason they don't hangout with each other as well as I is that their SO's just "take up all their time" and they use that as an excuse not to get together anymore. My friends also give the same excuse which is a huge bummer because they invited me to go to another country with them but last minute decisions made it that I was replaced by their SO.
I wasn't able to get an SO because:
- most of the ones I liked were taken.
- they only interact with people that has an "active" social media account.
- circumstances were low to meet anyone prospective.
I'm not someone judgmental or the like and would rather be friends than to criticize one. My "type" isn't based on factors such as ethnicity, race, height, weight, or anything physical. Personality matters much more than appearance in the long run for me.
What do I want/What can I do for you?
I just want a chance, really. A chance to add some more color in life and bring in some variety that would do us both a favor. Life, for me, is much more enjoyable when you can discuss what goes on in front of you with someone and just go off on tangents that open up a whole different line of topic. I like to make someone's day as I have many times in the past. It's pretty awesome to know that you can impact someone's daily life by involving them in your hobbies.
We can travel the city together or watch some extended LOTR movies if that's what you like!
I'm well-versed in a lot of movies, video games, and possibly music? Music might be a tad bit of a hiccup for me but I can manage.
If all goes well for me in the next few years, we can probably start our own studio or something together. A namesake. That's a huge long time dream I have and it's somewhat happening now.
This summer, I haven't gotten an internship or a summer session in college because I wanted to spend it on self-discovery. I want to make this one something to remember into adulthood.
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If you made it here, thank you for reading! If not, the TL;DR is in another castle. :(
For those who wish to contact me, you can message or start a chat with me! Either is fine.
Submitted July 06, 2019 at 06:15AM by SubliminalAltXVI https://ift.tt/2JeyM6H
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