Back in high school which wasn’t to long ago I met a girl she was a wonderful girl and strangely enough we both had a crush on each other after she agreed to go out with me we grew close and our love was stronger than anything we had ever felt in our depression filled lives.
Things began to decline when she was falling behind on her school work because she could only think about me and when her mother found out about this she began to despise my existence. After explaining to my parents why her and I hadn’t really talked my mother was proud of me but also began to be skeptical about her. Our families aren’t bad people per say but they fucked up greatly.
Other small instances occurred mostly when we were caught sexting each other.
The finale nail on the coffin came when she had decided to run away from home in emotional panic as she was emotional unstable but of course it didn’t bother me. So while they were searching for her my family received a phone call form the police asking if she was at my house. Of course she wansnt and if she was I would have reported it immediately to the police. That was the end of everything my mother screamed at me and forced me to break up with her and at the time I was afraid of being disowned and thrown out into the streets.
I honestly can’t get into all the lying I had to do so she would stay away from me because writing these I had to force back tears.
After all this time I realized it’s my parents fault. It’s my parents fault I suffered growing up not just my dad but my mom is to blame for it.
I tried to piece some sort of love life together but you can’t really fix a heart that’s been ground into dust.
At this point I don’t know what to do. I loved her and she loved me back something I barely do now. I was almost able to get some kind of love but that girl became uninterested in me and didn’t tell me why and she didn’t even tell me she wasn’t interested her friend told me.
It’s been hitting me hard recently and I want to go off on my parents but they are always in the right nothing I say is taken seriously and if I have any problems with them they guilt trip me into dealing with it. Even when I try to put my degree in Culinary Arts to use at home I’m nothing more than a joke to them but if I did it to them there would be hell to pay.
Submitted November 17, 2019 at 04:36AM by Silent-Survivor52 https://ift.tt/37bRhCL
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