Preface: This is a documentation of my daily life while abstaining from pornography, masturbation, and orgasm (also known as "PMO") for a minimum length of 30 days.
Hypothesis: Semen retention does NOT have any more benefits over masturbating in moderation (WITHOUT PORN) or a healthy, moderate sex life.
My thoughts on SR: Semen retention is anti-sex and mostly placebo, riddled with mysticism and what I call "religious leftovers" (like, masturbation is bad! abstaining from sex is good!); most people retaining could actually see the same benefits WHILE enjoying a healthy sex life, in my opinion (I understand that you can have sex without ejaculation. I'd have to do more reading on the topic but... the whole tantra kegel injaculation sex seems unnatural and even unhealthy to me. I haven't tried it nor do I know anyone who has.)
The majority of people doing SR believe everything revolves around your semen: the top athletes, actors, businessman, etc all do SR, and if you have sex, you will clearly feel you are drained, because semen has a huge amount of minerals and nutrients (Is it true? Again, I should do more research on the topic, but besides a bit of zinc, one average ejaculation doesn't contain much of any essential nutrient)
However, I'm a firm believer in quitting pornography, period. No pics, videos or Instagram models. That being said, I feel like masturbation, in moderation and without porn, causes no harm, and can even be beneficial. When I say in moderation, it really depends on the individual. While having polite discussions on the topic on Reddit, I've decided to try it for myself and document it from the most objective perspective possible. You may think I have a negative bias towards SR, but I believe that's outweighed by the fact that, like everyone on Earth, I wouldn't mind if my life improved.
About me
- Age: 19
- First Language: Not English, so I apologize for any grammer mistaekes
- Sexually Active: Not at all
- Longest no PMO streak: ~70 days
- Orientation: Heterosexual
- Height: 5'11 (I'm sure someone believes you get taller on SR)
- Hobbies: Lifting, boxing, music production
- Income: Middle middle class
- Career: Engineering
- Location: Southern hemisphere (not very precise, I know, it's just so you understand this will take place during autumn)
- Religion: I do NOT believe in the metaphysical. Not in chakras, the soul, God or "life-force," so everything documented here will be from the most objective and scientific perspective possible.
- What got me into r/nofap and r/pornfree: I suffered from erectile dysfunction twice, possibly porn induced, that kept me from losing my virginity. I can't be sure I'm cured, or that it was even porn induced, but regardless I do strongly believe that a no-PMO reboot period is highly beneficial for everyone. This also led me to the ever-increasing self-improvement trend. I used to lift weights before, but since then I improved my diet, started meditating, martial arts, fasting, mewing, etc etc. I'm the cliche self-improvement guy I guess. I watch a lot of videos about these topics.
- What I'm trying to incorporate alongside SR that I haven't yet is: cold showers, falling asleep/waking up earlier (22:00/7:00 is my goal), and, inherently, daily logs. And I'm growing my beard (I've heard it grows better and thicker, though it's possible cold showers will play a part in the results) I'd also like to become more social. It's a sad truth, but my ED experiences have made me much more shut off to socialize. The truth is I've been afraid and embarrassed for a long time. It's something I need to face head on!
These are the main points:
- Overall Mood: Simply how happy I feel
- Energy: How energized I feel
- Productivity: How productive I was during the day. Or did I watch nothing but YT vids?
- Horniness: How... you know.
- Urges: To masturbate. I usually don't have urges to watch porn anymore, but I'll add it if I do
- Attraction: Did I notice women noticing me? This is a tricky one. The cheesy "im four days into nofap and a girl made eye contact with me on the bus, relapsed and now im ugly." Yeah buddy, not really.
- Lifting: How good was my lifting session. This can be influenced by outside factors too!
- Boxing: How good was my boxing session. Did I knock out every one or got my ass kicked?
- Meditation: My meditation session length and quality
- Sleep: Time I went to sleep and woke up; quantity and quality
- Cold showers: Did I do them? How long? Or did I got for a warm shower?
- First Meal: Time of day of my first meal
- Calories: I don't really count calories but I can estimate High, Moderate or Low
- Sugar: Same as above (my processed sugar intake, not my blood sugar or anything like that)
- Wet Dreams/Night Emissions: If I ejaculated during the night, perhaps because of a sexual dream (A lot of retainers believe it has negative effects) I'll add this beginning from the first day I get one.
- Weight: I weigh myself almost every morning after going to the bathroom
- Log: Just a few remarks about my day and my thoughts
Feel free to comment any other point I should log, feedback is welcomed. I also will take weekly selfies. I don't know if I'll share them because I value my privacy, but I'll let you guys know if I turn into Brad Pitt Jr.
This log will probably be updated multiple times a day through post edits. I will add weekly conclusions/observations as well.
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Day 0
Overall Mood: 5/10
Energy: 5/10, had to take my very first powernap before boxing (15 min)
Productivity: 6/10
Horniness: 5/10
Urges: 9/10
Boxing: 6/10, hadn't boxed in more than two weeks, got punched in the gut.
Meditation: Didn't meditate! :(
Sleep: can't remember, only that it was of bad quality and I think I overslept
Cold showers: First actual cold shower. Quite short
First Meal: 15:00
Calories: Moderate
Sugar: Moderate
Log: I hadn't masturbated in 8 days. At 6 PM I went to boxing class, which I hadn't for a couple of weeks. Was really nervous because it was my first sparring session in a while. Fought this big southpaw. Was doing well, landed multiple jabs and a couple of crosses, but then I received a big ass uppercut to the stomach that left me out. I lost. But still, I was happy because... honestly it was fun, I've missed it. Got home, walked my dog, went to the bathroom. Decided to masturbate. Did two in a row. It was quick, like a minute each? The first nut was very thick and yellowish, common when I go for longer than 4 days without busting. Then I took my very first, proper cold shower. It sucked, but it was fun at the same time. I went on Reddit and spoke with some Redditors about semen retention. I discussed my beliefs about SR, politely. I decided to take the challenge and make this documentary.
Day 1 (15/3/19)
Overall Mood: 7/10
Energy: 7/10
Productivity: 7/10, watched many YT vids but still got shit done
Horniness: 7/10
Urges: 5/10 (and a tiny bit of urges to watch porn too, but very tiny)
Attraction: 6/10
Lifting: 6/10, had to share rack, couldn't train neck, but I felt strong
Meditation: 7 minutes, ok quality. I need to work on my posture, and keep my eyes slightly open I believe
Sleep: 23-8:30 - ok quality (7/10), I think I overslept
Cold showers: Second cold shower. A bit longer
First Meal: 15.00
Calories: Moderate
Sugar: Low, had fruit instead of junk food
Log: Woke up, feeling groggy again. This has been a common theme these last couple of weeks. It's possible I'm oversleeping; I have no college until April 1st. I quickly felt more energized, however. Made a nice music video for one of my beats. Went to the gym. Uploaded the beat. My gut still hurts from yesterday's punch. Started organizing this diary, which is keeping me up a bit late, it's 23:31, I shouldn't be on my computer.
Day 2
Overall Mood: 5/10
Energy: 6/10
Productivity: 7/10
Horniness: 4/10
Urges: 5/10
Attraction: 5/10
Meditation: 7 min 4/10
Sleep: 00:30-9:30 - ok quality (7/10)
Cold showers: didn't shower, don't judge me
First Meal: 14:30
Calories: Moderate
Sugar: Quite high, really craved it today.
Weight: 76.5kg
Log: Woke up feeling slightly sluggish but much better that the last few days. My stomach still hurts a bit, dammit. Started formatting this diary. Drove my dad to a couple of markets to do some shopping. I don't have a driver's licence yet, but I think I'm ready. I drove pretty well today. Came hone, washed my mom's car, ate lunch. Procrastinated a bunch afterwards. Tried to make a song I have in my head but I can't seem to nail the chord progression
Day X
Overall Mood: X/10
Energy: X/10
Productivity: X/10
Horniness: X/10
Urges: X/10
Attraction: X/10
Lifting: X/10
Boxing: X/10
Meditation: X/10
Sleep: 00:00 - 0:00 X/10
Cold showers:
First Meal: 00:00
Calories:
Sugar:
Wet Dreams/Night Emissions:
Weight: kg
Log:
Submitted March 17, 2019 at 12:49AM by Jack518 https://ift.tt/2Y4kQ4r
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