In most aspects of my life, I’m very easy going. I don’t stress about things out of my control and try to stay positive. However lately, I’ve been very annoyed at the thought of losing my stuff.
I’m not very selfish, I often give a lot and don’t receive or ask for much. But holy fuck, I just want my stuff returned, no matter how small!
My roommate, who often I feel very used by, currently has 3 of my nice art pencils in her room.
Why is this a big deal, you ask? Let me tell ya
She never returns anything of mine. Rarely has she ever. The only things she returns is when she takes things of mine without asking, like if she were borrowing a sweatshirt or whatever. The other day she borrowed nail polish of mine, and I had to go in there and get it back a week later. She’s the type of person where, if I say “hey I’m at the store do you need anything?” She’ll give me a laundry list. She’s always asking me to use stuff of mine.
I love art, I do it all the time to relax, I always buy my own stuff. She asked the other day if she could use some of my paint. Now, the answer I want to give is no, but honestly-it’s just paint, sure she can, what’s the harm?
She took it upon herself to take 3 of my pencils when I was at work. One, is charcoal, and if you know anything about art you know charcoal goes fast, so it bothers me I only have one of it and she’s using it to draw. The others are only specific shades I only have one of. She didn’t tell me she took these.
I only know she has them because I needed to go into her room when she wasn’t there because she has a full body mirror. The problem is, I don’t want to say “hey I went into your room when you weren’t there and saw you have my 3 pencils, give them back please :)” cause I know it’s just three pencils. But it’s been days and she hasn’t returned them.
It’s not the fact that it’s 3 pencils. If my sister took them, I know I’ll never see them again and I’d be fine with it. It’s the fact that she uses me for so much, I just feel like she thinks she can just take whatever of mine and if I have a problem with it I’m controlling/ocd/not care free.
I went home for the weekend and mentioned it to my parents (we joke I have ocd) but the entire time they just looked at me like I was crazy. Can I not be annoyed I feel like I’m being taken advantage of? I PAID for those! Should I have to buy a new pack of stuff everytime she wants one?
And because things like this bother me, they’re starting to have “oh well Kaylin’s just on the spectrum” jokes. It’s not very funny, and honestly I don’t think this is something weird to be annoyed about?
I know having an entire wall of text for 3 pencils is a bit ridic, but it’s more than that. I don’t like being walked all over and disrespected.
Edit; and some of my stuff she loses. For example, I bought steel straws the other day, and she left one at some girls apartment she’ll never see again.
Submitted October 13, 2018 at 06:35AM by Kaylinj99 https://ift.tt/2A7qclx
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