My head feels like it's about to be split apart. I close my eyes as hard as I can hoping the pain will stop.
"Uhm, we're almost there! At this point, you might as well stay home and wrap yourself up in blankets." Sayori said with a worried tone.
"I'm fine, Sayori. I'm sure it's just a-"
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I let out yet another yelp of pain. It hurts so much. I...
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I see an image flash before me. It appears to be... a boy standing in front of Monika... he's angry about something and what he said caused Monika to slam the door on him. Wh-what am I seeing? I then hear Sayori's voice faintly calling out to me...
"Can you hear me!? Oh nononono!"
Before Sayori could dial 119, I place my hand on her thigh. "No need, Sayori..." I can see the panic in her eyes, she must've thought I passed out or died. Heh, the thought of dying to some sort of migraine. A very strange migraine.
"But you like fell limp and I was shaking you a lot for you to wake up and, and I went to go dial 911 and-"
"It's 119, Sayori. 911 is used for other countries like the U.S." I slowly lift my upper body up, feeling my head to detect if there's an injury somewhere. After feeling around the top part of my skull, I haven't felt a bump or a sense of slight irritation.
"Oops. Ehehe, my best friend and I watched a lot of American movies and I guess I just got used to them dialing 911." she smiled.
Sayori not recognizing me is jarring. I remember when I taught her to cook so she didn't have to be afraid of burning the house down, I bought her lots of snacks but told her not to eat them up in one sitting. She finished two bags in a minute or two. I remember...
Oh God. I remember. She called me on the phone confessing to me that she was severely depressed since childhood and that exiting her room is like letting the monsters from under your bed out and crawl under your skin instead. They hide under your skin and they force you to pretend to be someone else. To be that joyful upbeat girl down the street who's always there to brighten up everyone's day. To me, that's who she is. I couldn't accept this part of her so I kept trying my best to send those monsters away. I'll send her chocolates. Send her cuddly plushies and always a red bow. I always send her one, to remind her of who she is. She might've not wanted me to send her those things, but I did. I did for her.
Damn it...
"Hello?" Sayori waving in front of me.
"Sayori!" I hug her tightly with tears in my eyes. "I remember! I remember!"
"Uwawa!? What are we remembering!?"
"You weren't answering the phone so I ran towards your house as fast as I could! I opened the door to your room and I saw you... hanging from the ceiling with that lifeless stare in your eyes! When I got you down from the ceiling, I held your cold body and I called an ambulance!"
I feel Sayori's arms wrap lightly around me but not completely. "Wh-what?"
"Your body was still. During that time when the ambulance was making its way towards your house, I held you so tight praying that you weren't dead! I was full of dread and tears thinking that my best friend was gone! When the ambulance took you away, I was pacing back and forth biting my nails hoping they can bring you back or that you weren't dead yet. When I got the news that you were still breathing, I was so happy! I was-"
"I failed?" Sayori said softly, unwrapping her arms around me.
"What..." I looked up at her and she seemed lost. Confused.
"That means I failed..." Sayori's expression turned neutral. Her eyes bored and her mouth curving downward.
I know what she means and for God's sake, not again. I don't want it to happen again. "Yeah... you failed..." burying my face in her shoulder, I let my tears run down fast as a waterfall. "...but you succeeded in making me happy. If you were gone, I wouldn't know what to do with my life. I'll be stuck in grief, pain, and the feeling of nothing and emptiness."
I sniffled. "But now... that you're here and for some reason you don't remember me and you remember a different person... I'm not going to be mad at you. I'm going to be better. I... I'm going to kick the shit out of your demons."
Sayori laughed lightly. "That must be a funny sight to see..."
I let go of her and place my hands in hers, holding on to them firmly and smiling. "Trust me, I was taught martial arts and those demons in your head..." I booped her forehead. "They're going to wish they stayed underground away from us."
She giggled which made me feel content. I say one more thing to her. "I promise you that I will never leave you. I'll be right here." I point towards where her heart is.
"Ehehe, that's' an ET reference." Sayori giggled again.
I join with her. "I'm pretty sure he didn't point there. He pointed towards HERE!" I booped her forehead again which made her laugh again.
I'm happy to see you like this, Sayori. I swear on my life that I will never let you do this to yourself again.
I will be better.
Submitted May 15, 2018 at 06:17PM by DiilVulom https://ift.tt/2Iqv2MJ
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