• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I am 25 and female. I really don’t know what else to say that isn’t answerable by these questions so I’m just going to answer ‘em.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that impact your mental/comportamental stability somehow?
I haven’t been formally diagnosed but I have struggled with disordered eating basically my whole life, with periods of high restriction for the last 6-7 years. I struggle a lot with perfectionism; which I think is what it is rooted in. Not sure how helpful that is.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
Both my parents are very kind and supportive and I have always been close to both of my siblings. My childhood was not particularly structured or unstructured. The one thing my parents (particularly my Mom) took very seriously was school and good grades. My Mom is Catholic and my Dad is agnostic. My Mom really wanted her children to be believers in her faith but didn’t force it. I was always curious about religion but sceptical. Currently agnostic/atheist (mostly atheist but I am open to the idea of a higher power if evidence became available).
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I am a full time student studying towards a Masters of Accounting. I both love and hate the specificity of Accounting; it’s very satisfying when I get it right but it doesn’t come as naturally to me as I thought it would. Previously I worked in legal services (my Bachelors was in Law). I really enjoyed that role because I enjoy research and I mostly got left alone to get my work done.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
It really depends on whether I had anything to do. I very much enjoy my own company but get bored easily and often rely on other people for entertainment. I dislike that about myself. My ideal weekend would involve other people but from a distance; like going to the mall and movies alone.
• What is your relation with movement and your surroundings? For instance do you prefer a sport or outdoors event? If an outdoors event what is it? And why? If not what type of activities do you tend to engage i?
I have always been terrible at team sports which is all that was offered in my small town growing up. That lead me to thinking I hated sports but I think I actually just dislike team activities. I enjoy movements that allow me to just zone out and think about different things and where I can compete against myself. For example I enjoy yoga and running. I am very unaware of my surroundings most of the time, usually I am deep in thought.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I am extremely curious. I love learning for the sake of learning. My ideas rarely become anything more than ideas though which can be a source of frustration. I am curious about so many topics; particularly genetics, crime, psychology, pop culture, fashion, animal behaviour etc. I am pretty imaginative and have been thinking of book ideas ever since I can remember. The times I have tried to actually write said books they have been really disappointing though as they come out nothing like I imagine in my head hah.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I don’t seek out leadership and I don’t feel comfortable asserting myself as a leader unless I’m formally appointed as such. In school and university I have been appointed “team leader” on several occasions and have surprised myself with how I have handled it. I usually ask for input and get a feel for general consensuses and then go from there. I consistently check in on people with how they’re going and make sure everyone is happy and comfortable. Being liked as a leader (and generally) is important to me.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
Not really. Sports and physical activities have never really been my forte and due to being a perfectionist I have avoided them because I can’t stand not being the best at something (my least favourite trait). I just never really had any interest in any ‘working with my hands’ activities so never really practiced my skills in this area.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
Most of the forms of art I enjoy are image related; like make-up and fashion. I think I have a natural eye for fashion and have always loved putting outfits together. I use fashion to appear more interesting and less shy than I am. I’m not very skilled in make-up but I love seeing myself transform and it is very therapeutic for me. I started wearing it because I was very self-conscious but now I just really enjoy it. I also love acting.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
I spend a lot more time thinking about both the past and the future than I do the present. I would say I’m mostly future orientated; I think about what I need to do and what I want to happen all the time. I am forever writing to do lists. But I also love to reminisce on the past.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I’m usually pretty hesitant but always end up helping. Mostly because I’m lazy and also because that’s kind of how my parents are. When I met my partner I was so surprised someone could be so willing to help other people. If it’s not physical assistance though I’m usually happy to help. Like if someone asks for money or something I’ll always help out.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
Yes. I am very much a creature of habit although I always think about running away and just doing something completely different. I do get very bored doing the same things day in day out but worry if I mix things up too much I won’t be able to achieve my goals.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
As I said I make to do lists all the time and love nothing more than feeling productive. However, I have a MAJOR problem with procrastinating. I will usually try and procrastinate with productive things like going to the gym or cleaning but I also do a lot of nothing, all the while feeling sick knowing I should be doing something else. I think my procrastination is at its worst when I feel overwhelmed and fear failure of the task, or when I’m bored by it.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
No, not at all. I don’t enjoy having that kind of influence over other people.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
This is a really hard one for me because I feel like I don’t have any, even though I know I do. I enjoy reading, researching random topics, hanging out with my partner and family and small friend group, social media (wish I spent less time doing this one), shopping, going to the gym, going to the beach, listening to music. I really like hobbies that involve limited effort. I do all of my thinking and hard work at school/work. I do like working hard at the gym because I like feeling good and seeing results.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
I learn best when I can understand why something is how it is and also a lot of repetition. I don’t enjoy learning environments where the teacher calls out people to answer questions because all I feel is panic about getting called and can’t even think about the answers other people are giving or what answers I’d give.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I have to break up projects into very small tasks in order to do them and to stay on track. Otherwise I get overwhelmed and will just procrastinate. Winging projects and improvising is my nightmare.
• What's important to you and why?
My family, friends and partner. No matter what happens in my life I know they will be there for me. Having a good support network is very important. It’s also important I feel like I’m constantly progressing in life and contributing in some way. It’s important that I keep remembering the bigger picture and don’t get weighed down by the what if’s and what could happen in the future.
• What are your aspirations?
My aspiration is to be able to contribute to the world in some way and be successful. It doesn’t matter what form success takes, as long as I genuinely feel that I am. I want to have a career where someone isn’t always breathing down my neck and that I can help people in some way, even if it’s just through doing their accounts. Ideally I would like to be a forensic accountant but if I don’t become one I won’t feel like I’ve failed in life or anything. I also want children and to marry my partner and build a house and travel the world.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
My fear is not being good enough. Not for any particular person or career or whatever but just generally.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
When life is good I can make friends with anyone and everyone. I am charming and funny. I am highly motivated and hard working.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
Isolating myself, overthinking, being socially awkward, procrastinating a small thing for days and months, starving myself or binging, crying all the time over everything.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I love to daydream and it is definitely my default state. I get very deeply into my daydreams and am not aware of my surroundings at all.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
Probably one of the books I am writing in my head but can never seem to get out on paper haha.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
A very long time. Even non-important decisions take me forever. Indecision is one of my main personality traits to be honest. Once I’ve made the decision it’s not likely I’ll change my mind because I’ve put so much thought into it but I do often think about what-ifs. This has been particularly bad with my career choice. I hate that you can’t have every occupation all at once because I love the idea of being the best at everything.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
Quite a long time. I often feel things and don’t know why I feel them so I have to give myself time to figure it out. Emotions are very important and they play a big part in my decision making although logic does too.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yeah I am very agreeable. I have found that the times I do disagree it seems to cause more trouble than it’s worth so it’s usually easier to just go along with it. I’ll say something if it’s really important to me or just completely wrong.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why would you?
Not really. Most rules are in place because they’re logical and create overall positive outcomes. However I don’t mind breaking the rules if I think they’re pointless. For example in school we weren’t allowed to wear anything under our school blouses but they were see-through and I didn’t feel comfortable having my bra on display so I would wear a tank top underneath. When we had uniform inspection I just kept taking the detention. I also wore nail polish that I refused to remove, my rationale being that it made me feel confident and didn’t affect my education at all. But yeah for the most part I follow the majority of rules, because they’re mostly there for a reason.
• What is the ideal life, in your opinion?
Pretty much what I mentioned above. I want to be happy mostly and I think that comes down to working on small goals every day, building relationships with others and also with myself, doing what I have to do in order to be able to do what I want to do and finding joy in the little things.
Submitted November 25, 2019 at 06:22AM by idunno2k18 https://ift.tt/2qyCm5c
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