I exercise a lot, I take a variety of workout and martial arts classes at this mma gym. I play guitar, make decent money at my job but not enough to do the things I think I’d really want to do and enjoy the free time to do it, but I’m not overwhelmed with monthly costs of living or anything either. I’m just going through the motions.
I feel like all the joys of being an innocent teenager have completely left my body and soul. I don’t feel that happiness from talking to people, or anything. I still feel myself smiling and stuff in these interactions, and I nailed a new job interview today... but everything still feels empty. I just either feel nothing, sad, tired, angry, or physically stressed and in pain. No excitement, joyful anticipation, enjoyment, no love, none of those happy joy feelings. I think I love my girlfriend, and our dogs... but emotionally I don’t notice anything. Looking back at these moments each day, it feels automatic.
I feel like I have made great accomplishments in controlling my ADHD and being able to slow down when I read or play guitar, and control the subconscious movements of my tongue when I read or speak in my mind, to further quiet my mind. And joining that mma gym gave me a bigger boost in my physical energy and mental calmness. But... no excitement or joy is coming back. I had all the energy to goto the gym again today.... but just didn’t feel in the mood to do it. I feel no sense of any emotion to get anything done, 24/7, and it just bugs me the more I think about it.
What pill do I need to take to feel emotions again, without giving me ticks? My medical doctor prescribed me Abilify to test it out. But the side effects look like they’d fuck me up and give me permanent side effects.
Has anyone gone through the same thing and gotten through it?
Submitted November 20, 2019 at 05:08AM by TheDogWhispererer https://ift.tt/37lJ7HQ
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