Yesterday I received some confusing, worrying and inconclusive medical news. Not life threatening but a curveball that I wasn't prepared for.
I got the bus home from the hospital, went to work for a client in the afternoon and then in the evening cooked dinner and had to go straight to a knitting group I help run. I really didn't want to go, but I did it (though of course I was late).
I don't process emotional stuff that well, and I have had no time to process this. So I have decided I am going to throw myself a pity party today. I'm taking the day off work (self-employed, so I won't earn any money today, but hey). I'm wearing my pjs, I'm not answering the door, gonna try to do some nail art, watch a bunch of youtube and rubbish tv, eat chocolate and pizza, cuddle my cat and try and have a cry.
I spend a lot of time and energy trying to hide my emotions and act normal. I'm gonna allow myself to wallow and be grumpy today and tomorrow I'll get dressed, go outside and face the world.
Submitted October 18, 2019 at 12:38PM by KitsuneTiger https://ift.tt/2nWAIsJ
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