I just Need to say it, I Need help

Found this Sub today and I like it so far. Hope it's okay to.. vent a bit, almost.

I am 22, years ago, I magically got into My Little Pony and was all about "i want to draw like These People". My first fandom, so probably no surprise how you suddenly appreciate art when you didn't before.

Back then I did pick up a pencil, threw in some YouTube Videos and tried to learn how to draw. I didn't stick to it for too Long, but i've learned some Basic things there. Also got myself a draw tablet, but didn't use it initially. After a while I stopped.

Later, like 2 years ago, I wanted to pick it up, this time for real. I bought an art book, a book where you learn how to draw stuff. I drew a lot, like an hour every day, tried to really nail down Basic stuff. But I have a big issue, I try a new series of lessons and just end up not sticking through them. I do the first lessons, but as soon as the difficulty Spikes up I just don't do them anymore.

I tried to learn perspective, 1 2 and 3 Point, but I fail to apply it anywhere. I try to think in perspective, but as soon as I am drawing a face, a rough Body shape, whatever, it Looks off. I can draw about every shape (sphere, cylinder, boxes, triangles, elipses, curves, lines..) reliably, but it doesn't help me because I fail to see how to apply that too.

I have high expactations of myself and I think it holds me down too. I just look at my drawings and say "fuck it". I am not happy with how I draw. Especially given how much time I've invested into it already. I stick to it, but I just can't get myself to draw anymore. It will likely be the same, rather than picking up a pencil and just draw something, I will probably end up doing things I enjoy more. And if I would end up with a pencil in my Hand, I'd draw a Little, but will have no clue of what I should draw.

I am really sorry to make my first post here like this, but honestly, I just Need to get it out, as I have no Person to talk to about that stuff.

Submitted October 17, 2019 at 09:45AM by unrely13 https://ift.tt/32n7Qsz