You ever see those characters with the tired, droopy eyed look? They look really relaxed, just going with the flow? That's pretty much how I am, I'd like to think. Kyle from Animal Crossing pretty much nails it, or just that one kinda spaced out look you can have as the Villager. They might seem tired, but there's a lot going on inside.
At heart I'm both an explorer and builder of worlds; the latter happens to be my job (game dev, ish), though I'm on the grunt end as it started as a hobby. Exploring is hardly limited to the physical realm, and in fact exploring the creations of others from the comfort of my own space is most appealing. Not every medium calls to me, it's mostly limited to stuff like games, art, and animation (more eastern, but western has its moments), though exceptions do exist. I like stories in general, folklore and tales, and navigating my way through a world someone else thought up and made as an intentional experience to share with others. Despite my background I'm not much of a seeker of truth, but simply experience.
Naturally, I spend a lot of time in my head because of this! It often comes off as being disinterested, or suddenly it's days later and I realize I haven't talked with someone between everything going on. While part of the truth is it's just hard to connect, the other is I really do operate on a slower energy wavelength. This isn't something I want to or even needs fixing, as someone tried on my first post lol. A lot of the posts here scare me because of such intense, immediate expectations, and I have to admit I can't offer what most are looking for. Clicking is great, but lasting friendship isn't something you can demand or force. I'm not "bored" or looking for a distraction, either. Friendship is not a cure for those.
It's hard to say what I'm really looking for or "need." I think it's more just casting a line out there sometimes and seeing if anything bites, ya know? If a perpetually tired, quiet-ish, but warm friend sounds appealing, I might be worth a shot. I do hope to meet other single folks closer to my age, not for dating or anything but because the vast majority of my co-workers and few friends are all married, and it's pretty repetitive when so much of any conversation revolves or dances around their relationship. I do not care in the slightest about gender, and often get along better with other guys.
Just to toss out a few specifics, I'm deep into Code Vein at the moment, and about to start Digimon CyberSleuth while waiting for the new Pokemon next month. Still on the fence about starting One Piece over, too. Oh! And I love hockey, had to mention that at the end, it's nice to have the season going again. I grew up in the State of Hockey, so it's sorta woven into me.
Submitted October 20, 2019 at 04:56AM by Foxheals https://ift.tt/2VTtwds
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