Uh, hi
I'm quite new to reddit, but I needed a place to talk about what happened to me yesterday. I'm a 21 year old female and I am studying graphic design. I don't know what to do and what will happen to me soon, I might end up dead. My parents stole all my money and there's no way I can get enough to pay for my electricity bill this month.
My parents have always been manipulative and abusive, mostly verbally, but I've got hit in the face from time to time. I was a stubborn kid, so I know I wasn't the easiest to deal with, but I don't think that by telling me "nobody will ever like you" and "you deserve to be bullied at school" they helped much. At school I have been the black sheep of the class, I was the silent kid drawing in the back, so I was an easy target. The person who bullied me constantly is in jail for murder now, at least she got what she deserved. In highschool my best friend commited suicide and I was completly lost and got into a shitty relationship where I would be raped and forced to do sexual things every day. I managed to escape that shit 1,5 years later.
My dad started drinking more and more wine, at first it was just one glass every other day in the evening, but later he would drink like 3/4 of a bottle every evening. Of course he was very defensive and claimed he wasn't addicted. He would always have this creepy habit of touching my butt and legs when I was a kid, I don't think it was sexual, but It developed into something creepier when I started growing. He would constantly grope me and then he would deny it ever happening when I'd ask him to stop. My mother would call me selfish for not letting him touch me.
He got quite drunk yesterday. He is on some pain medication, he shouldn't drink, but since my mom is an enabler and enjoys to just watch me suffer, she just gives him the booze. He started just touching me again and I was pinned to the wall, I was asking him to stop. Ofc he didn't stop, just said "I'm not doing anything wrong". So I fought back, I rarely did cause whenever I have, they would beat me. I kicked him and locked myself in the bathroom, crying. They left me there for a while talking about how I AM THE CRAZY ONE and THEY SHOULD GET RID OF ME. I tried to cut my wrists to just end it , but with only tiny nail scissors i managed to only make some small cuts. When I left the bathroom to pack my things they grabbed me and started beating me. I got hit so hard in the head I fainted for a while, I guess that made them panic so they started helping me back up... After a while, they left me alone in bed and when I was alone I grabbed my phone and ran to the bathroom again.
I called my friend, F begging her to pick me up, I don't believe police would help me. My dad is a multimillionaire and even If I sued him, he has the best lawyers in the country. I'm defenseless. I finally escaped through a window ( I live on the ground level and have huge windows, so it was easy to just get up on one and jump over). After a bit of hiding my friend picked me up.
I stayed over at her place till my parents left my house (I moved away from them 700km/450 miles, to move away from the abuse, It didn't help as you can see). I worked for my father's company as a 3d graphic on a VR training program, so I have no way of earning money at my current work now. I don't think I will keep the job.
While at my friend's place I used her computer to contact my boyfriend, who lives abroad and her messenger was open on a conversation with another one of my friends (lets call him G), basically saying that I am worthless and that I should keep my abuse to myself (I did till then). I got him a job as a 3d graphic myself, and it hurt my salary significantly. I just wanted to be a good friend.
I know that I shouldn't have looked at the conversation, but I did anyways, since it was open. I just found both G and F saying that I deserve all that is happening to me and that I am a piece of shit for not sending in models on time. I couldn't send in shit cause I had my father dry hump me all week. F knew all this, I considered her trustworthy, yet she literally wished me all the worst shit in the world. If not for me she wouldn't even by studying in uni anymore, I helped her with literally 50% of her projects this and past year, I did all 3d models for her last year cause she was too busy browsing facebook in the class all year and didnt even know how to rotate a basic cube.
She went to do some shopping, so I was alone, but I just wanted to leave. I waited for her to come back and left. I will never contact her again.
I have realized later that my entire bank account was whiped. I am left with nothing and I don't wanna ask my boyfriend to fund my rent. I was saving up for vacation I had planned next month with him and to pay him back for the plane to Madeira and the hotel. I had the exact sum, I saved up for months. they took everything, I didn't even know that they had access to my account. Right now I can only earn money by doing art commissions, but since I don't have a following, I don't really get any commissions.
My last hope is a pet shop nearby, I used to work there, they pay 50% of the minimal pay (they are very scummy) but I don't have much choice. I will try to get a job as a waiter next month, If I won't be dead by then.
TLDR;
Girl abused by parents, drunk dad molests her, she fights back, escapes and discovers that her friends hate her. Finds out that she has had everything stolen from her bank account so has no money to pay the bills.
I'd appreciate any help and advice on what I should do now.
Submitted August 18, 2019 at 02:40PM by Potato_Beans https://ift.tt/2KFuJRt
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