I kissed one girl when I was 7 and I'm currently still a virgin. It's like, when I try to connect with people, my attempt falls flat on its face. I have few friends, but I try really hard to socialize even though it's hard for me. Friends aside, dating seems impossible. Like I don't know what I'm doing or I'm not attractive, funny, witty or smart enough. It feels as if I'm always one step behind other guys....
People tell me to socialize more, get more hobbies, ( I draw, game, workout, dance, martial arts, play piano, etc. ) get in better shape, etc. But I feel like that's irrelevant...I don't want to drag others down in my misery, but the things I've mentioned above? I've seen people with less than that have a perfectly normal relationship. Meanwhile I have to fight tooth and nail to even get girls to look at me....
I'm definitely not ugly but I guess my personality sucks? Maybe I'm boring or weird? All this negativity? It's only online. In person I'm very cheerful and positive but I have to let this shit out somewhere. It's like, why am I not enough? For anyone? Even when I'm socializing with people who have a shit ton in common with me, they don't seem to care about me and there always seems to be a better guy.
Look, I understand that everyone has a preference, but I seem to be NO ONES type. Like something's wrong with me at my very core... Please tell me it gets better?
Submitted August 25, 2019 at 05:02AM by giventake_ https://ift.tt/2PdEmve
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