I have really bad dermatillomania caused by my adhd. I’ve tried pretty much everything to stop it and nothing seems to work thats practical. I have like, puddy and an off brand kinetic sand (the only one i like) that help but the puddy has to be replaced a lot and the sand isnt practical for driving/doing other things with even one hand. Plus my partner doesnt like me using them in public bc they say its too childish. Ive tried keeping my nails short but that doesnt help. Ive tried forcing myself to just stop but i dissociate too bad and even when not i barely ever notice im doing it. My adderall helps but even though its xr it only helps for like, 4-5 hours max and im only supposed to take one a day. I told my doctor and he didnt really suggest anything, and my therapist agrees with me that the stim stuff is my best option. Its gotten bad enough today someone called my job bc they thought i was shooting up drugs and i had to explain to my coworkers its an adhd issue. The worst part is the only time i dont do it with or without meds is when im doing something i find super interesting (art mostly) or when im with my esa (she helps keep my hands busy and keeps my anxiety down, among other things). Thats not feasable 24/7
On top of causing social issues, its making my acne worse and is causing scarring. My mom also has the same issue and she has huge scars all over. I just wish my hell brain would just work like normal for once. My partner gets mad when i do it and i wish other people would understand i cant help it, and would love to stop too.
Submitted June 21, 2019 at 04:00AM by shyghst http://bit.ly/2FpnU3o
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