Sorry if you've already seen this post, I took this off r/casualconverstation, where I'd originally posted it and thought it would be better suited here.
So... I developed a crush on a guy I used to go to school with. The funny thing is, back when we were in classes together, I hated his guts! He used to tease me too hard and knocked my confidence multiple times, I tell you what, he might have been a little sh*t but was a handsome little sh*t! One day in GCSE art class, he asked if I would go out with him, I knew he was teasing and my suspicions were confirmed by him the day after, but that didn't stop me from catching feelings as I lay awake that night, wondering what it would be like if he were serious.
Even after years apart, I still fantasize about him. I know my attraction is only ever going to be skin-deep and won't compare to everything he's built with his fiancée. When it all comes down to it, I know I've very much "fallen in love" with the idea of him, as opposed to who he really is, but some how, it still sucks to see him engaged now; it's like the last nail in the coffin that confirms what's going on it my head is only a fantasy and always will be.
I just hate that a growing, lonely part of me still wants him.
Thanks for reading this, I just wanted to knock these feelings on the head so that I can sleep tonight.
Submitted June 19, 2019 at 12:31AM by lazywriterno302 http://bit.ly/2ZtJSdl
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