I think I'm trans, and I want your help

So, for the past months I've been struggling with my male identity and got really close to transitioning before I made a decision to wait some more before I decide if that's really for me.

First things first:

• I still hold true the idea that 'feeling like the opposite sex' is weird and not entirely true;
• No man can fully become a woman without experiencing womanhood by being inserted from birth in a sexist world;
• Trans women are doing atrocious things to the perception of women by enforcing stereotypes;
  • Being a woman is not putting on lipstick and make-up, even if your intent with that is passing so you can be perceived as one. It takes much more than that;
• The male / female thing is a spectrum, not something binary.

With that, please be kind to read my story:

I'm a 18 year old male. I'm in art school and I'm often called a 'pussy' for caring too much about my looks. I like putting on nail polish, earrings and make-up, whilst fully dressed as a man. This is just how I feel like and it's not an intent to be a woman or something like that. It's just how I like to express myself.

From an early age I struggled with boyhood. I admired for years the relationship between girls and between women and I found that powerful. That wasn't something I could find with boys. My father wasn't present in my life that much and I grew up solely with female models. Strong females, hardcore feminists, by the way. My mother, grandmother and great-grandmother are my role models.

I suffer from what they call dysphoria, which is an unsettling sensation that makes me uncomfortable in my own skin. After months of pondering, I came to the realization of what I wanted my body to look like. I wanted to be a woman. The idea of becoming a woman has made me very unsettled. Could that be a solution to it?

I explored the idea a bit more and bought female clothes, started presenting myself as a female online and started frequenting a local trans support group. I really liked the vibe.

But after thinking about it for some time, and of course, browsing this 'hate' subreddit, I came to this realization:

The only thing I desire is a female body. Nothing else. For what I care, you can call me by my male name, and make me use male clothes for the rest of my life. I'm fine. No make-up, no lipstick and 'girly' things. Just my old things and I'd be really happy if I just had a female body.

The idea of having female legs and torso, having a feminine face... Ah! It makes me happy just by imagining it.

Should a desire to physically alter my body be considered trans?

Is hormone therapy the right thing?

Please make me question myself, as I know this is a honest subreddit.

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TL;DR: No trans faggotry. I just want a female body.

Submitted May 16, 2019 at 04:54AM by gladpunx http://bit.ly/2Vsgth1