hey y'all so here's the skinny - I don't really know how to categorize my sexuality and I want your help.
I'm 24 years old and have been happily straight my entire life. I have a few gay uncles and was raised to not really give a shwoop about someone else's sexual or gender identities, but never really second guessed my own.
Then I went to college for theatre. Many of my friends were in the lgbtq community, and I started wondering if I was less straight than I thought. I know that I'm attracted sexually and romantically to women, I've slept with what I think is a decent enough number of women and even loved one or two of them. But I think I'm also sexually maaaaybe romantically attracted to very specific guys. I really only have any interest in guys who present more feminine-like, I like cute soft things and smooth features. I've gotten off to gay porn before, and have fantasized about sex with men, though I've never actually had much interest in pursuing that experience. Honestly the idea of actually having sex with a guy feels kinda foreign and nerve-wracking, like I don't even know how I would begin courting or carry on from there.
This worries me because I don't want to seem like I'm queer-baiting. I definitely don't present in the classical masculine fashion (painted nails, earrings, sometimes eye-shadow, etc. kinda an art-punky aesthetic) and more than a few people have thought I was gay upon meeting me.
So then this is the best way I've been able to describe my sexuality: I'm bi with a preference for women, and a pretty specific type of man I'm attracted to. Is that something that I can say if I've never so much as kissed a man before? Am I just a queer-baiting dickhead and I need to stop? Thoughts?
Submitted May 25, 2019 at 03:51AM by watmydingdongwanttho http://bit.ly/2X199uE
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