jk, i know you are. can’t wait to read your opinions! again, sorry about the length.
• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
i’m 19, female. college student, only child, latina.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
not at the moment, i don’t think
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
definitely no significant religious influence. i was baptized as a baby but everyone is where i’m from so it doesn’t really mean much. i did attend catechism classes as a kid but it was my personal wish to do so and solely because my friends were also taking them and i wanted in. more about my childhood: i grew up being the only kid around until i was about 7, when my first baby cousin was born, so that meant hanging out with a bunch of adults all the time, which i actually liked. my parents are literal opposites (not an exaggeration) and would constantly argue on basically how to raise me so i feel like i had to do a lot of learning by my own, at a very early age, because they’d get caught up in the “how” and nothing would ever move forward so (to illustrate what i mean a little better, i had to teach myself how to ride a bike because my mom and dad would argue back and forth about the techniques i should be using which is just. insane). i’d also frequently participate in their discussions and give my opinion which, looking back, is not something i’d particularly want for my children but i always liked to be heard and taken seriously so i feel like there was much more good than harm done. other than that my family is pretty healthy and i’ve grown up around overall very structured, loving people, albeit there is undeniable trauma going around, just like any other family.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
i’m in college studying journalism. i love itttt
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
i’d be entertained by myself but in the end would probably be craving some outside interaction. that is, if we’re disregarding the internet and online interactions.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
i like reading (books, articles, reddit posts, news, anything, learning (sometimes i’ll stumble upon a really interesting psychology concept or conspiracy theory or biography and i’ll just research the shit out of that), watching youtube videos and the occasional netflix, writing, jamming to music. the usual. and i don’t particularly like sports except for the aesthetically pleasing ones like figure skating and i suck at all of them. i love the beach and parks and even walking if i have a lot of things to look at around me but as for outdoor activities i think that’s it.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
so. fucking. curious. i’ll do whatever just out of pure curiosity, that’s more than enough reason for me to do something. yes to the second question too. and i don’t really know how to answer the rest, i think most of my ideas are really just theories. i’d say i’m good at picking up patterns and i like coming up with new concepts to explain them because i don’t really believe in coincidences? but yeah that’s about it
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
i think i’m more efficient as a leader’s right hand, if that makes sense. i’d have the ideas and feed them to the leader while not really having to follow blindly AND not having that much responsibility because hey, i didn’t even do anything. i’m a much better thinker than an executor. but i guess my leadership style would be concile, concile, concile and try to get as much done as possible.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
(trying really hard to not make a masturbation joke when minutes ago i was just telling a bunch of strangers on the internet about my traumatic childhood) YEAH i guess i am. i like doing my makeup and nails and have really nice handwriting - i have like 7 different handwriting styles ‘cause i get bored and probably have a personality disorder, you tell me reddit.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
okay this is gonna sound so assholeish but i feel like i can do anything i put my mind to? like i’ve been pretty good at drawing when i to be. i can definitely, objectively appreciate art though. i’m very drawn to aesthetically pleasing things and i’d say i have a good eye. i particularly love museums (paintings in general but i say museum because of that VIBE) and architecture. modern art is probably my favorite but i love van gogh’s work to an inexplicable amount; my favorite painter is basquiat. i also love poetry (rob frost and andrea gibson take the cake for me) esp. because i feel like it’s a safer place where they don’t have as many patrons as paintings and such, except for maybe like shakespeare but does he even really have any OG fans? are any of them alive? anyways, words can definitely move me as much as any picture could. i realize my taste is very very mainstream and i’m okay with that, i am in no way trying to be a cult hoe and the fact that i have to anticipate a certain response to this answer is mainly what turns me off when talking about art (the curtains were blue to represent depression, the random red dot in the blank canvas represents his decaying relationship with god and his father, that kind of stuff too).
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
choices, man. that’s what it really come down to. and to answer the second question: humor, mostly, and a liiiil bit of therapy when money allows.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
if it’s achievable, inexpensive, and i have nothing better to do, i help. i’d do it because i like it or i like them. i don’t like cashing in favors so that’s never really why i do anything.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
as much as this crazy world can give me, although i can appreciate the irony of... well, being alive i guess.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
meh. they’re not among my top 10 important things ever. i rarely make big decisions envisioning efficiency or productivity, which i admit may be the reason to so many of my demises but i’m okay with that. also fuck capitalism!!!!! jk
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
i’m afraid i do. i’m not a huge control freak or anything but since i can’t help but pick up patterns i feel like i have a tendency to manipulate people into the place i’ve designed for them in my ideal outcome. i do this thing where i string together specific sentences because i know how to get them to say what i want them to or to have an idea that was really mine but that i want to come from them? i don’t think that really makes sense and i promise it’s not as bad as it sounds lol
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
pretty much the activities i previously described. i like them because they keep me entertained while not being a colossal waste of my time, i guess
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
let me just preface this by saying i hate math. just thought you should know. i struggle to focus whenever there are too many distractions and even when there aren’t, honestly, i have a ridiculously short attention span. if there’s too much noise or outside information i find it very hard to learn. i like a learning style that follows some kind of logic or sequence, particularly if there’s a historical backstory and etc.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
i have a hard time breaking projects down to its composing parts because i never know where to start, i never know which task is easier or more feasible than another. i’d definitely say i wing it 90% of the time, and when i do plan i procrastinate until the very last minute.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
i want to travel for work, get to know many places and people and live in at least 3 different countries in my lifetime. i don’t crave fame but i’d like to frequent certain inner circles because, i mean, singularity. i want to have money; not wealth. personally i’d like to get in better shape, maybe eventually have a family, find someone i don’t ever get bored of to have it with.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
i am terrified of clowns. i’m scared of not being able to handle the real world. i’m afraid of not caring as much as i should. i’m afraid of burning out. intimacy has the potential to make me uncomfortable. men in general do, too. i don’t hate very many things but i have a lot of tiny pet peeves, nothing too significant though.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
it’s compliments about my mind, it’s waking up at 7 and going to sleep at midnight and not even feeling tired, it’s not eating and feeling full, it’s sitting down to write and have the words just leak out from my fingertips, it’s having an epiphany worth sharing because people listen, it’s being nice and not just “cool”, it’s opening up and not feeling threatened, it’s having conversations about me and my life instead of it always being the other way around, it’s being happy and not just satisfied, it’s not living vicariously through other people and going on my own adventures, it’s not caring about what anyone thinks but not in a smug way, it’s getting drunk and not thinking about that guy that did me dirty, it’s dancing like no one is watching at 3 in the morning under the stars wearing “la vie” by lancôme and sweating with blisters on my feet and a smile on my face.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
pulling out hairs scratching my thighs not showering hating my friends stuffing my face taking 5 hour naps snapping at my family sleeping with the wrong people not turning in assignments ghosting my friends tanking job interviews creating a better life inside my head and doing nothing to make it come true.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
i daydream crazy often and drift into deep thought at the blink of an eye. sometimes i’m aware of my surroundings and sometimes i’m not, also depends on how long my daydreams last lol
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
no idea. i’ll probably try to remember a song or a poem or a story in as many details as i can and then recite it to myself. good waste of time right there
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
depends on how important and on the deadline of that decision. but i usually will not change my mind because i’ll weigh the pros and cons a dozen times at least
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
it takes me too long to react to things and too long to get over them. takes me a long time to process my emotions as a general rule. and i’ll admit they’ve been very neglected for most of my life but i try to take them into consideration out of regard to my mental health.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
yes if it’s about something that doesn’t really matter anyway. but i’ll stand my ground if we’re discussing actual important shit, which is usually not the case, so. i’m good at keeping a conversation going most of the time without having to agree with people just to please them. sometimes though i just can’t be bothered to argue because the other person is just too stupid or hard headed to even listen (this is normally the case with politics, religion, and so on and so forth)
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
again, if it’s a stupid rule, sure. i don’t think anything is that black or white. i definitely think authority has to be questioned at the very least. people that cream their pants when told what to do make me wanna scream. and if i break rules it’s because i either don’t care or simply because i don’t agree, no heroic intent behind it lol
Submitted April 20, 2019 at 08:21PM by serenajbach http://bit.ly/2UM6tnj
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