Trans and GNC

Heyo, I'm Depraved/Zach and I'm an FtM dude who, well, is a trusum/transmed.

Skipping past any details of my own opinions because this is mostly about a question, I don't really know how varied of an answer I'll get with this. I've seen some pretty lenient Transmeds here and then others who seemed pretty "strict" in their defining of transness, dysphoria etc. But that's not to shade anyone here, I don't care, just saying.

Anyway, the question is, how do y'all feel about GNC (Gender-Non Conforming) trans people? For example, an FtM who may want to do/wear/whatever more feminine things? Are they ~invalid~?

I'm asking, mostly because it applies to me. Whenever I'm in public I try to pass as best as I can because I'm pre-transition meaning I have to be as masculine as possible. I know I do pass pretty well, but I've been really wanting to do more feminine things and be able to do it in public, but I'm scared that'll make me pass less.

I'm not really talking about like, wearing dresses or anything like that, but just simple things like painting my nails, wearing a little bit of makeup, wearing clothes that are in colors other than black for once lmao. Not only that, but I feel bad because it makes me feel like I have some sort of "internalized misogyny" because I try to avoid feminine things in public all the time. Y'all know, dysphoria central. It shows up in my art a lot too. Most of the male characters I draw I project onto and make more feminine, at least in terms of clothes.

So I guess another questions as well would be, would it be a good idea to be GNC in public? Like I said, I pass pretty okay, and the most I'd be able to pull off right now is painting my nails, but would that be too much of a risk? I mean, the worst that could happen is that I don't pass, people call me a dyke, my parents go "I told you so, you're not trans etc etc" and the best that could happen is I do pass, but people'll probably assume I'm some flamboyant gay boy (which isn't entirely incorrect, but I don't needa be called a faggot either)

Long rant, yes, but I'm this is the best place to ask 'cause as I'm sure a lot of us are aware, most other Trans subreddits wouldn't be very reliable

Submitted March 11, 2019 at 05:19AM by lovingly-depraved https://ift.tt/2Ce69T0