Dear step cousin (18),
I came across some post online about how everyone thinks your just so amazing and how you make everyone so proud."Oh look a teen mom who overcame the odds blah blah blah so brave!" I just wanted to say....I hate you, I've always hated you since we were kids and my dad married my step mom. You and my step brother were bullies and did everything you could to get me in trouble and make me feel like an outsider. I'm so sick of how if anyone wants to put you up on a pedestal because you survived a suicide attempt. Look I get it I have depression too, I understand its hard and I'm glad you were able to be be saved and shit. But I resent you becsuse I never self harmed myself, I but I hurt my body with out a blade. I blessed my ear drums out with music, I locked myself in my bedroom and isolated myself, I lost intrest in everything and honestly I never pictured myself living past 18. Because ofnyou no one would listen to my call for help because it wasn't as 'severe'. But I don't have "real scars" like you do. Just the ones where you stood there with my family and your mom and basically made fun of me along side them, the fact that I couldn't bring myself to shower regularly, I never wanted my nails and make up done and you mocked me and laughed as you, your mom and my mom tried to "make a girl" out of me. I have had horrible self esteem issues becauee of you! Because my own step mom, the closest thing to a real mom that I could have had and she loved you way more than me. You rubbed it in my face, always going doing girl stuff. I remember when I made an art peice show in my journal about how Im proud of being a tom boy because for once I loved myself which is really hard. And you showed it off and my dad sat down and asked why I wrote "evil things." You got my ass beat with a belt and paddle when I was innocent! I hate you so much. I wasn't surprised when you got knocked up for attention, after your suicide attempt your parents went from helicopter parents to letting you go be a Ho-bag. And got forbid someone says something about you because according yo your mom, and our whole family "she's so brave" and "don't say anything or mama bear will make you go away." Well I hope someone puts you in your place because I might end up seriously hurt because I can't fight but kicking your ass would make me a lot happier. We could have been amazing friends but no you had to go and just make me feel like an outsider. I hate you! With every cell in my body, I hate you! You're little miss perfect no matter what you do. I hate you, because you were the daughter my step.mom wanted. I hate you because you might be 2 years younger than me but you were a shit person. Hope to see you in hell whore.
Submitted March 11, 2019 at 12:54PM by Agentstarla https://ift.tt/2VPHdIW
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