I wonder if we can do something a little fun and write what are the things that only lesbians do that might seem inconspicuous to other people? Like, I guess the daily subtle things that only lesbians do or understand when they see it in other lesbians.
- Down casting or averting my gaze away from all men whenever I walk outside in public. I used to think this was because I was shy. Only, I don't really do this with women.. I just stare ahead normally or quickly look at her and then keep on walking. But with men, I make it a huge point to really avoid their eyes or walking/sitting/standing too close to them.
- Ignoring men or desperately wishing/hoping that I don't get noticed by any men at all. Pretend I couldn't hear a man speaking to me or his greetings in public, or like I couldn't understand English lol. I did this even when I was a 20 year old ~straight~ woman.
- Having a very awkward and complicated relationship with femininity. Didn't wear makeup until maybe 14-15, and I was horrid at it. I was laughed at when I came to school one day at 14 with a face full of makeup because I just never cared to master the art of cosmetics. Had a guidance counselor pull me aside and told me to wash it off. Kinda felt better after I did so. Always felt very uncomfortable wearing dresses or skirts or anything that shows even a hint of sexuality. I thought maybe it was because I was just a tomboy or I hated boys and men that much naturally. Not that there's no such thing as a feminine lesbian girl (hello lipsticks!) but.. yeah. I don't know. It was the unspoken attention or looks from guys that made me feel very uncomfortable in general while the other girls in my class ate it up.
- Bad nails from lack of care. Always preferred having short unpolished nails. Mom screamed at me to at least put on a color, that I looked like a man. I just didn't understand why it was such a big deal. Again, I just thought I was being a rebellious child or a tomboy. Wearing nail polish or lipstick both felt so.. heavy on me.. like I could literally feel the suffocating weight on my nails or lips and I desperately wanted to wash it off as soon as possible.
- Having this urge or dream to just RUN AWAY but not really knowing why.
- Roleplaying as a male character for a video game or an MMORPG forum and not thinking anything of it when I would get flirtatious attention from players who were played by other females. I'm just pretending, amirite?
- Even when I'd grow my hair long, I never.. just, understood the value of up keeping it or making sure to stay on top of trimming, layering, coloring, styling, or even combing it. I'll go out with long frizzy/ratty waves and I didn't cared. I thought I was, again, being a tomboy, lazy, depressed, etc. Or if I'd get a nice haircut, I would just let it grow out again and not care about it anymore.
Erm, what about you guys? I'm sorry if maybe this is a bit stereotyping, just wanted to share some of my experiences from my days of youth.
Submitted March 23, 2019 at 04:29AM by nooropia https://ift.tt/2HR93kn
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