๐ฌ๐ญ Looking for ๐ญ๐ฌ A Mother, big sister or aunt. Someone I can look up to, who can hold my hand and take me places and open up my world and can help me catch up on the experiences I've missed out on, so I can finally start living. I don't need any money or personal care, just love, emotional support and lots of quality time together.
I'm also looking for friends to hang out with.
๐ค๐ฐ Stuff we could do ๐ฐ๐ค See animals, go shopping, ice skating, roller skating, arcades, play games, do art/crafts/make things together, baking, nail art, dress up, photoshoots, go to conventions, sleepover-type activities, party games, go to the park, adventure parks, nature walks, have a picnic, go to the beach, water parks, travel (Japan, Disneyland, somewhere snowy), or introduce me to grown up stuff like nights out, or anything you like to do. Anything that isn't me sitting alone in a room, staring at a screen, I am so sick and tired of this, it's driving me insane.
๐๐ผ About ๐ผ๐ My name’s Sephi, I’m from England. Some things I love are animals, toys, J-fashion and photgraphy.
Since school, I’ve pretty much just sat alone in a room, frozen in time and missed a huge chunk of my life and development. I’m 25, but socially (not intellectually/physically) stunted at 12. My friends all grew up and left me and I have still never been able to make friends or have life experiences beyond that tween stage yet, I'm just stuck. I haven't celebrated a birthday since 13, never been to a bar, never been drunk, never had a relationship, never been cuddled or kissed, never had prom or graduation etc, every new years, Halloween, bonfire night etc are spent alone in my room hoping that next year I will have family or friends to celebrate with, but year after year after year nothing changes except the chunk of life I missed out on getting bigger and bigger.
I am independent in every other way and can look after myself and, although nobody will give someone as socially inexperienced as me a job, I manage to make enough money off the internet to live off. I am just missing a social life and all the experiences and opportunities that family/friends/humans bring. Life isn't worth living without that.
My biological Mother is dead and we were never able to have any kind of relationship because of her brain problems. I never had any female family members or family friends or anything. Never had anybody supportive in my life. Nobody to look up to, nobody guide me, nobody to ask for help, nobody to bond with or talk with or have any sort of emotional connection with whatsoever and it has left me so stunted and emotionally malnourished. As I grew, the emptiness grew too and the need for a Mother figure has now consumed me. My only 2 family members have no emotional connection with me and I have had literally 0 friends for about 7 years now. I spend at least 12 hours a day on the internet, desperately trying to find people to be in my life, but it has never been successful as I really struggle socially due to never having experience. I have spent years trying meetup groups and classes and sports and volunteering and everything you could imagine to try and kick start a social life, but it has never worked. Nobody likes me because we can't relate at all, we are at totally different life stages and experiences and have nothing in common because I am so below them, like a child. No one wants to hang out with somebody like a child unless it's their daughter/little sister/niece or something. But nobody wants a child as old as me. I am told that I look very young, most people online guess I am a teenager, so I hope that might change your mind about wanting to be in my life.
Submitted March 03, 2019 at 06:08PM by Milky_Angel_ https://ift.tt/2C1WUVU
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