So the tests I take usually have me settled in the middle scores. If you can help me out that would be great 8)
• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
28, female, super independent and likes to spend time alone apart from friends/boyfriends time to time (doesn't mean im financially or spacially responsible) and generally a rebel/don't want to listen to my parents/people. I never seek out to please anyone, I'm generally not really insecure or anxiety-ridden when it comes to what people think of me. I have a genuine interest in connecting with people I play games with or same game friend circle. I am trying my best to commit to changing jobs right now, but I am distracted easily. I have no problem socializing and actually think is fun, but prefer most of my socializing is done online with my online friends of 10+ years. Before that, for a huge chunk of my life 17-22, I was barely on the computer and just partying/socializing but I grew out of it.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
I also have ADHD/ADD so sometimes I literally let things whoosh past my head even though I don't mean it. i.e. Cashier is helping me out and trying to make a quirky joke as he's helping me, but I was multitasking trying to listen to him but also looking for my card then started thinking "where the hell did I put my amazon card" and let the cute cashier be ignored. My ex and friends would say I have issues listening/paying attention. When I'm in a room with a screen/s I will notice it. So IDK if it's my "head in the clouds" or a horrible combination of that with my ADD and ADHD.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
Parents are asian and were never home since I was young, because they would work long hours and we went to church on every Sunday. So it would be me and my sis, sometimes hanging out together, sometimes not. I was SUPER rebellous according to asian christian standards in middle and high school. But my parents were pretty extreme, my dad once said my red polish on my nails during high school is what whores do in the bible. Mom said I was the devil's child all the time because I listened to Imogen Heap. My feelings towards religion is pretty liberal, I believe people have the right to their own faith and have the ability to respect others, but I generally dislike religious institutions. I also disliked the ridiculously flawed logic that would come out of my parent's mouths, and generally said "yeah yeah yeah" but ignored them. I still snuck out successfully to party during high school, smoked weed, did some other misc party drugs. I still did pretty well in school and got a lot of extracurricular activities in (Amnesty Youth, Fashion, Journalism).
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
Right now I'm at a desk job doing general operational work at a small asian company. I'm underpaid and doing too many job titles. I liked the aspect now of how it's just dead-brain work and I can usually listen to music or podcasts. However, I do not like it because it's not towards the original marketing/operations career I wanted to grow into. There's no specializing and I feel like the only things I'm learning now is patience, complacency, and the limits of my patience.
I would love to work for a company that's actually growing and works directly with big budgets, real projects with KPIs, and get involved in a thorough process of good company work. Here at this company, management just says this is how we've been doing it and we can't do this or that- and the whole company is steadily declining. I would love to grow into a managerial position, because I've always been bossy and instead of being insecure about it, I want to grow that character in me in a healthy way.
Later down the line, I may take pursuing a psych phD more seriously so I can do some research and learn/help the human mind of more niche groups that I know myself more (online).
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
Both! I'd like to be out for some hours of the day both days but also make sure I stay in. Going out would be like Ikea, grocery stores, walk down the beach, brunch with friends, etc. If I didn't go out at all, I'd feel like I'd wasted my time. If I did spend too much time outside, barely time inside, I'd be disappointed.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I'm not fit so I'm not good at sports- but I like to golf, range or full-course it's fun- I just don't do at all since high school. But tennis, basketball- I just like hitting/scoring things but not competitively because again, I'm not fit enough. Most of all, I prefer gaming, photoshopping (creating), and learning (reading on things) of current events, historical, movie plots etc.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I am a curious cat. I have gotten along with INTJ as a partner, because they've constantly engaged me in their immense knowledge and could thought-provoke me capturing my attention/interest....and I always got lots of questions. I'm definitely always trying to find the "reason" behind things- which is why I had a hard time with chemistry in high school. Professor would be like this equals this, but I'm thinking but why and how? I'm curious about people, why they do the things they do, why the things they did, and possibilities of growth for themselves in the future.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I have been in leadership positions and I feel like there is definitely room to grow, but I'm naturally bossy and can get organized when I try. I can usually motivate people and create good energy to get people moving. I also tend to check-in with them and see how they're progressing and if they're okay doing whatever assigned thing it is they're doing. My leadership would be guidance, just as I would like to be guided. I'm not a fan of micromanaging unless you're an absolute perfectionist (like my old restaurant boss), you just can't help but respect the process and results from his micro-managing (I did rebel here and there, small things* Changing the top 40 music to something else, jeez!!!).
But yes, I've often fallen into co-leading or leading groups, I organize all the things of what needs to be done, actively listen and discuss points. And I can assign depending on what members strengths and weaknesses are. It could be because of my distrust of someone else leading and doing a poor job or I just enjoy the project gets done and check up on the progress on people.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
I haven't done these activities in a while, but I used to play the bass guitar, some piano, and do a lot of arts/crafts. I probably am not coordinated enough to play on the drums. Practice helps with coordination, but I am naturally
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particularly artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forms of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
I love art, the minds or the eye-pleasers. I am MOST inspired by Mall Licudine (@shardula) and understand somewhat of the insanity and skills of David Choe. I appreciate genuine abstract and genius in non-bs art. I respect artists that recognize they must be highly skilled in the art in order to express more abstract art. Both mentioned artists can do all types of art, including realist if they had/feel like they had to. I believe there is an art of everything, conceptually. Art of beauty, art of science <- I know, we can talk about this later. I guess I'm relating art in a more passion sense. Haha. I have had a trauma with art personally, and when I have the leisure to explore art deeply again, I will.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
The past is the past, I should learn but not look back at it too much. The present is the most fun and the future is exciting. My biggest challenge is delaying instant gratification. I am growing to self-discipline myself to LOVE myself more in things like self-control and rewarding my tomorrow self for what I did today. I want my tomorrow self to thank my present more.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
Depends on what it is! I'm not stupid enough to do any old request anymore. But based on my past, my ex told me I had a problem of helping someone without getting anything in return and would get mad at me for helping them and spending so much time helping them. "What do they do for you?" etc.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
I appreciate a patient and logical person in my life. I can get irrational emotionally, but I still prefer logic in the things I do and see. I guess I'm a bit sensible. Logic is reasonable.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
Very- I base my career on doing things more efficiently and productively. At home, it's a bit of a challenge with the distractions, but at work- very, very important. When it comes to the human mind though, I feel like it's a journey and a process, and those things you don't want to think about the efficiency, but rather the quality of the healing.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
Unfortunately, I don't think I have the ability to do so- or the interest. It's what about what I want then I'll ask and request, but in the end, no they are their own minds and beings- they should be able to make a decision and I should be able to respect it no matter how much I b**** and whine.
Not really control, but I try to delegate a lot with my roommates in cleaning or being more responsible around shared spaces and being respectful of me and each other. I'm very nurturing I guess or more OCD... I'm usually the "mama" of the house.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
I'm a social gamer, I get to talk to people and make jokes and have fun doing it. Watch shows with friends. I like being engaged in activity with people and making memories, but laughing is the best.
I like to be by myself and watch shows like Neon Genesis Evangelion or comedy shows and delight myself in the writing, confusion, humor, or concepts of things.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
I'm definitely a hearing type surprisingly. I like a charmer, as anyone (which is why I do the same in my presentation, I add humor and confidence). Well, I do generally have to stimulate myself by scribbling and doodling while listening to my professors/presenter if they're not the charmer. I do not like watching long videos, I'd rather read. It's faster.
Boring lectures are the worst environments, but I've learned to somewhat deal with it. The most engaging environments are the ones where we occasionally do group activities and get hands-on- or need to do group projects because you're forced to know your sh** because you shouldn't screw this up for yourself, but especially not others!
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I've gotten better at strategizing with projects I'm passionate about. If I do get inspired mid-project, I'd obviously have to do it! Projects were my thing in school, by the way, killed it and went overboard all the time. :)
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
Personally?! I want to meet my soulmate and be the best for them too! I want to be VERY fit and healthy because that is the most important thing to me, my future, and those that love me! Professionally, I want to grow into an operational whiz, creative marketing director, or a psych Dr researching amazing things and helping people! Most of all, since I was 6 I wanted to meet my future kid(s), hoping it happens someday :)
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
Fears are that I will never improve emotionally, mentally, and never be fit. It's all about me, me and me. Haha.
What makes me uncomfortable is when I can't completely read people. It doesn't bug me THAT much, but if I had to think of something there it is.
I hate it when people refuse to express themselves, even though I know I'm just an open book and super-expressive.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
Me driving, smiling, window down, music blasting. ^_^ Doing more active things in regards to working out or going out.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
When I'm in an emotional rollercoaster because of an infatuation. I self-sabotage my body and my room. God help me.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
Half and half? :D
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
How to get out of here, I don't want to die like this. This is scary T_T
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
Too soon, and my mind can be changed... back and forth. Fighting my urge/feelings to rational logic. Sigh.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
I'm not a cryer literally, but I can be a cry baby. It takes me quickly to process through my many emotions.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Rarely, my ADD/ADHD will rudely change the topic because of my impulsivity and interest that moved on.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
I break rules only when it won't hurt anybody or any function, and it's just to add some fun light into our lives! Authority SHOULD be challenged, a lot of us adults are good, but a lot of us are bad. We need to watch out for the young ones and have the responsibility to make it better now that we've aged more.
Submitted August 14, 2019 at 02:17AM by Rika012 https://ift.tt/2OSFkwx
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