Hello there!
This will be a long post, so I will try to keep this lighthearted with a couple of possibly bad jokes here and there - as to not bore you with a wall of text :D (Oh and probably one-too-many emojis. I apologize about it in advance, but I simply can't help it)
I am not exactly new to MBTI, but I am not exactly an expert either (i know even less about the Enneagrams) yet have been obsessing over this for quite some time:
I type as an INFJ on a variety of tests (with -A for the dreaded 16p) but on the cognitive function tests I consistently have an abnormally high Te. It is always, and I mean ALWAYS higher than Ti. This is a problem because Te is supposed to be a blindspot for INFJs. I have read somewhere that the third function can apparently be of either I/E polarity, but the majority of the MBTI community advocates otherwise. Out of all the descriptions, the INFJ one is the closest to me, but I also relate to a lot of xNTJ things. It doesn't help that INFJs are supposedly contradictory to everything. For the Enneagram I also get 8w7 - 7w8 - 3w4 sx/so. I have researched a lot about those combinations but haven't found an abundance of reading material, especially about the 8w7 INFJ. The description that I found the most true to myself was about 8w7 INFJs being advocates of Darwinism and natural selection. It said that such INFJs care about people and want to help them, but don't hold hands, which gave me quite a chuckle as I tend to give unsolicited advice to people I care about. There was also apparently a study about cognitive functions and Enneagram correlations - and Te was linked to 8s. Do with that information as you will.
The more I learn about these things, the less confident in my past knowledge I become. This is all assuming I am a feeler in the first place. Maybe it's Fe that's the problem... Perhaps I'm an unhealthy version of something, or am not even an Ni-dom! I'd still bet on not being a sensor, tho :P
Anyhow, I know that even when answering the test questions honestly, self-typing is prone to mistakes and the chances are that I am either mistyping, or have a very skewered image of the functions and/or myself and/or the tests mistake Ti for Te. I, therefore, humbly ask you lot to help me clear up this pestering puzzle of my personality by typing me and, if at all possible, explaining whether and why I have Ti or Te (Kudos to you if you manage to nail-down my Enneagram while you're at it :D ). If you need any additional answers, let me know and I will provide.
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• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I am 21 years old and male of gender. I study engineering, and have a wide array of interests ranging from electronics and history to medicine and psychology, with my three main ones being engineering, video game development and the human condition. I would say that I am generally stoic, since I rarely ever worry about things. I also like to maintain an optimistic attitude whenever possible, albeit grounded in reality. I am an unintentional hypocrite. I have a love-hate relationship with humanity, and am constantly amazed by its limitless potential, as equally as by its demonstrated stupidity. I love to problem solve, but hate constraints about it (for example, I hate being tasked to solve a template school problem in the certain, already pre-defined, expected way). I like aviation, especially WW2 war-birds. I am generally fascinated by the mysterious nature of life. I also like to joke around and not take things too seriously.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
None. At least I hope so. I haven't had any problems, nor was I ever tested for anything. Then again, most lunatics are perfectly sane in their own eyes :P
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
Quite brutal, heh. Essentially, it was like the kind of stuff you would hear from your grandparents if you were to ask them what life was like when they were kids (thanks to the technological lag, it kind of was). I grew up as the youngest child of a relatively poor, morally-driven, Orthodox Slavic family of 6 (I typed them all as Sensors. 4 are quite stereotypical SJs, even by 16p standards, and the other one is possibly an SP) in a post-war, post-communism country. The town itself was festering, much like most of its residents. The dog-eat-dog mentality was prevalent and survival was the order of the day. Everyone was trying to crawl or claw their way to the top in the present vacuum, mostly via politics. My family was still stuck with the old state-party mentality and didn't really fare well because of it due to frequent changes of all the roosters wanting to be kings of their own piles, but they managed somehow.
As for structure, yes, it had a classic patriarchal structure and Orthodox Christianity was the religion I was brought up to follow. I was quite curious, and still am, so I responded by going with the flow at first, observing everything and everyone, and gathering "samples" before going my own way (based on my own rationale). I couldn't comprehend at the time, why people chose to blindly believe in things and not question them at all, why they chose not to take a detour from the beaten path and look for an even better way of doing things, why they liked and chose to live in a delusional world made-up of sugar-coated lies when facing an ugly truth would benefit them in the long run substantially, why some chose suicide, why some chose to selfishly pursuit their goals even if it meant ruthlessly hurting others, why very few liked to think for themselves, why so many wanted to simply be told what to do, and so on. Even today, I still can't comprehend all of those things... My different perspectives, interests, stances and ways of doing things quickly clashed with those of the majority and despite being so humorously in the right, was quickly shunned thanks to mob rule. An example of such things would be my warnings concerning certain choices which I gave to people I cared about, most notably my own family, and that were apparent to me because I had previously seen numerous examples of basically the same thing in different forms and instantly drew parallels - they unfortunately couldn't see my point (is this my bad Te or their bad Ni or something else entirely?) as it wasn't apparent to them, or simply thinking I was speaking nonsense because I was "young and inexperienced". They then proceeded to make said dumb choices and categorically ended up regretting them. In school, I was quick to notice that everything was in form of templates, and that students were quite shallowly taught to basically be drones who receive/recognize A and do B in response - to be cogs in a machine. I was described to be intellectually gifted, and excelled at any task handed to me, but I didn't flaunt it in anyone's face and was always open to hear out even the least intelligent individuals as even a blind chicken can manage to peck a seed every now and then. I do feel that this still did have an effect, at least indirectly, in my relations to others as I couldn't have real meaningful conversations with most people from my hometown and would only hang about holding shallow small-talk which I dreaded horribly but kept doing as to maintain harmony. The class, of course, wasn't keen on having someone "better" than them around for comparison, especially someone invulnerable to peer-pressure, but I wasn't bullied and was instead generally well-liked because I chose to help them around and teach them things. I also wasn't a teacher's pet, so I reckon that helped, too. (I didn't actually know at the time that I was that liked, as I stuck to my own business for the most part, or being an indifferent observer to most things. And thought people were, at best, indifferent towards me. I only learned about this after I heard a former classmate talk about me. My small heart grew three sizes that day :P )
As for the aforementioned religion, I immediately saw that people were only "publicly" religious. What I mean by that is that they would publicly display their faith and go to sermons and everything, but would do all sorts of shady stuff when they thought nobody was looking. I was very religious when I was young, did fasts and went to services and everything, but as I grew older and wiser I couldn't help but see religion as a man-made way of influencing the masses and amassing wealth for personal gain (which ironically are the things that religion teaches against). I found it nonsensical for someone to openly claim that they knew something about a higher deity/deities in a completely unknown and incomprehensible plane of existence and could therefore never believe in anything that other people tried to enforce on me. I do like discussing it, but with reasonable people who won't turn it into that type of theist-atheist type of debate. I am not an atheist, tho, as I have my own beliefs which I would say are closest to religious skepticism. As for my stance on religion in general: https://external-preview.redd.it/aVzuQwQ091vuKciWM8rAeUaPo\_ZUTAr233M-l5QOw7Q.jpg?auto=webp&s=e16fc31e7ca1dc0c673a89488304caaaf8f99abf
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I don't have one as I am a student of engineering. I do like my profession because I am able to problem solve without external limits thrust upon me (aside from funds and laws of physics, of course) AND help people by either solving that problem or coming up with something new that eases their way of life. I don't like how certain things are implemented/organized with the schooling system and think they could be vastly improved.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
Um... Normal? :D
I would undoubtedly feel refreshed. It's not that I don't like being around people, it's just that I think better when I'm alone, with no external noises or annoyances. I like socializing to an extent, but it drains me over time and I just have to get away from it all and have some peace of mind. I can't go without social contact indefinitely, like some people can, as I start yearning for human contact after a certain while.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
Generally, I like to do things on my own or with a tight knit of a few chosen friends. I like learning about anything and everything, playing video games... I dunno, standard stuff, I guess? Not really a fan of sports, but I do like the idea of paintball and airsoft (as long as people play fair). I also like martial arts, especially Tae Kwon Do. I'd say I'm definitely more indoor oriented, as video games are the sum of my leisurely activities. I like survival games and WW2 flight simulators the most (IL-2 Sturmovik). I also very much like War Thunder, the Metro series, Killing Floor 1 & 2, DOOM, Bungie's Halo, Resident Evil 4 and REmake2, The first Dead Space, realistic shooters like ArmA and Red Orchestra, RPGs like S.T.A.L.K.E.R, Fallout: New Vegas, Witcher 3, Mount & Blade. Not really a big fan of strategy games but I do like Generals: Zero hour and Age of Empires II. Don't really play strictly horror games much, but I loved Amnesia: The dark descent. As for board games, Risk is nice. Also, battleships :D
• How curious are you?
Yes.
• Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I would say I have a lot of ideas, most of which I cannot execute at the moment due to various constraints, but I do not forget about them. I basically push them onto the back of a mental queue and execute them when I can. Honest to god, I can't specify my curiosity. Man... I swear, when I go into the library I probably look like a child in a candy store... I really like learning about anything and everything. I use that information and feed it into my mind's virtual machine / simulator sandbox which synthesizes it and organizes into theses/ideas and tries to predict how things would behave in certain scenarios, which are then either reinforced or disproved by future learning/experiences. This results in a somewhat frequent occurrence of "Eureka!" moments. Realizations just pop out of the blue at seemingly unrelated moments and, to be frank, it creeps me the hell out. It's as if my own mind works separately from my consciousness and I have to backtrack to find out how I came to that conclusion and/or why I know that, which usually ends up being something I was curious/read about years ago. This can be a problem when someone asks me what i think will happen and afterwards asking me to explain why I think that (They don't take "I just know it will" for an answer, I tried) Now that I think about it, if I was to single out the things I am most curious about, they would have to be the human psyche and life. Like, why do people do the things they do? Why are they aware of it? Why are they unaware of it? Why do they like certain things but not other things? Why do some people care so much what others think of them? Why this? Why that? Why? Why why? What is life? How did life find a way? What was here before the big bang? Why is life so chaotically organized? How come we can't comprehend the time before we were born (not that we didn't exist back then, i mean how come we suddenly do)? Why do some people disregard their own life, that of others, or that of non-human beings? Does free will even exist or are all of our choices predetermined by our molecular make-up? So many questions, yet so few answers...
As for the ideas, I have no idea what you mean by environmental or conceptual... Sorry! English isn't my native tongue. Do you mean whether they are influenced by the environment or not, or whether they are practical vs theoretical or what now? They vary across topics and complexity. Sometimes they are about a mental attitude, other times they are about an invention. I would say that they are, for the most part, ideas about improving efficiency.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
Yes, I would. In fact, I always find myself oriented towards it, in one way or the other. For the most part, people generally turned to me to lead projects, respond to unexpected things and so on. It happened during my school years to such a point that it now gives me a queasy sensation when I am not in control. I don't like being bossed around, even less being micromanaged. I feel at ease the most when I am in full control. I like having the freedom to do the things I want to do with no constraints and realize the visions I have made up in my mind. I don't mind having someone else in control as long as they are competent enough to do the job and utilize everyone and everything to the best of their potentials, have the right priorities set and can handle the friction that arises when different visions collide. I would be perfectly fine with being an advisor to a good leader, tho, and have more time for my own stuff, as being a leader is sometimes quite exhausting. But if I think I can do a better job, I gravitate towards becoming the leader. Well, whether I would be very good at it is not up to me to judge, but I reckon I wouldn't do that bad of a job. My leadership style? Hm... I would say it is military-flavoured. When I am in a leadership position, I try to lead by example and be as effective as I can (play our strengths by assigning certain people to the things they would be best suited for the task), but also share the group burden by doing as much of the work as I can myself, but not over the point that it takes so much concentration that I lose sight of the bigger picture. I also always try to make sure that morale is high and nobody is neglected, especially the people at the bottom of the command chain. One of my vexations is when leaders have no regard to the well-being of their men. I get that after a while of up-scaling, individuals have to be replaced by a statistic for the leader to be able to manage everything, but come on... They're still human, too! God damn! The well-being of the subordinates is neglected so damn much, and kings rarely ever bother climbing down their tower... Also I hate it when people expect everyone to respect them and be compliant simply because they are in the authoritative position. Respect has to be earned by actions, not by titles. Also, despise those who fail to take ownership of their mistakes and blame X, Y and Z, or anyone and anything other than themselves. This is really apparent in leaders because most people simply do what they are told, and the choices that lead to that failure are ultimately the leaders fault first and foremost.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
Physically? Well, I can eat rice with chopsticks! I dunno, dude, I can pick up stuff from the floor, and open doors with my feet, but will randomly stumble outta nowhere as if I suddenly forgot I had legs. I would say I am about just about average in coordination (when I put my mind into it :P ) I wasn't particularly good at physical activities when I was a kid, tho. Still bonk my head on things like bus suitcase compartments from time to time...
I like typing fast, does that count? I like working with my hands, assembling electronic, soldering and crafting stuff, I'd even go so for as to say I kind of liked sewing and cooking - but I wouldn't say I am really good at any one of those things. Generally I kind of grow tired of doing it after a while. The more monotonous it is, the quicker the rate at which my boredom grows. If something turns out really good, then it has more to do with my unhealthy level of perfectionism and revision than with actual coordination.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
Well, I wouldn't really call myself artistic, but I do certainly enjoy and appreciate fine art. I did like drawing and sketching and art class in school, but I would rate myself about average. I do not actively do it. I don't do it as a hobby either, as a matter of fact. If I could choose my artistic expression, I would probably choose video games and/or cinematography. As for art appreciation I appreciate all sorts of art, especially good music and architecture. I feel like architecture is often underappreciated (I am aware some don't even consider it art. To which I say: just as anyone can paint a picture, but few people can paint a picture well - anyone can build a bridge, but few people can build a bridge that barely stands yet still does its job. Then again, by that logic all craft is considered art - which is something I'm ok with). I also like good storytelling that has an overarching theme and morally grey characters.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
I'd say they're an interconnected whole of which neither part should be neglected. Think of our Past, Present and Future as view-ports through which we observe a moving track called Time.
Past - we should learn from and study, so that we improve upon it and make sure that bad history doesn't repeat itself, and so that we can see what caused the good one to occur in the first place. We should use that information and aim to avoid the bad and recreate the good in the future so that we can enjoy it in the present when it arrives, because when it does, what we now call past will be forgotten. And forgotten history repeats itself;
Present - is the fruit of our past work which we should enjoy to the fullest, if it's good, as its current form might unexpectedly disappear after we blink. If it's bad, we shouldn't waste it wailing about its state, as that is a direct consequence of the past and is out of our control. Instead, we should use it to plant the seeds of a better future, one that we can look forward to enjoying;
Future - is what we should strive for and pay most attention towards, as we are on a one-way street towards it. It is inevitable, but, unlike the past and preset, we can control what it will look like (for the most part, at least). The future is our legacy which we will leave for the generations that will come after us and who will call it present, and we should make sure that our legacy is worthy of admiration;
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
If it's innocent and I can help in any way, then I do. Why wouldn't I? But it's quite obvious to me when someone requests "help", but actually just wants to pass on responsibility, or use me as an end to their means, and it is a request I politely decline (or if it could be beneficial to me in some scheme, I'll play the fool :P Hey, they started it - gloves are off!). If it's help with doing something, when I help, I aim to help by teaching that person how to do the thing they need help with, without my help, so that they will grow stronger and won't have to ask me for help again. The feeling of someone asking you for help, you taking them under your wing and helping them, and then later witnessing them taking care of a similar problem, alone, based on your mentorship is among the best feelings one can experience. If it's other type of help we're talking about, like material help, then I help if I can as I am fully aware that anyone get get into a bit of a pickle at any point, but I won't endanger myself for them (unless I really, really care about them). Help that I give, I give wholeheartedly and don't expect or count on being directly reciprocated, nor do I remind people that I did - but I do keep it locked up in the back of my mind somewhere, simply to be able to gauge if that person is really just using me. Of course, it sure is nice to be repaid, but I don't help with the aim to have it repaid.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
If by that you mean having everything make sense based on the previous facts/things it is built upon, then yes.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
Yes.
Ok, jokes aside, it is very important. As an engineer, I want to be as efficient as I can in everything I do. Why wouldn't I want to be? Oh, but this is entirely dictated by what we mean by efficiency and productivity, as they are not clearly-cut terms. There are a lot of factors which one has to consider when evaluating efficiency, optimizing productivity based on the needs, current situation and so on. The only constant there is change. Sometimes, the cheapest/quickest option isn't optimal and hence not as efficient as it might seem at a first glance. In another case, for the same problem, one might just get too tired/lazy in which case doing the least tiring, quickest option and getting it over with would be the optimal solution. But yeah, generally, it's in my interest to get the best value out of everything and hence efficiency is a key word. It directly ties into productivity, so I don't think I have to explain it separately.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
I try not to (said probably every control freak ever) and I don't like people that do. I live and I let live. Sometimes, however, it is necessary, in which case I try to do it as discreetly as possible, and as little as possible. The best kind of control is the one in which the person thinks of their actions as products of their own choices. Go Littlefinger on their a- oh that came out wrong...
How? I dunno, comes naturally, I guess... Oh, and if, by "controlling others" you mean for my own gains, then I wouldn't do it. I would do it only if I have no other way of getting whatever-it-is-so-important-that-I-would-puppeteer-others-to-get-done done. The only reason I would really control others is if I cared about them to such a point that I really don't want them making an obviously extremely bad decision which will ruin a huge aspect of their life, and I am certain that they are simply unaware of all the consequences. Even in such a case, I would really rarely choose to do it, unless it's really, really, REALLY bad - because it's better for them to get a bit burnt and grow wiser from that experience, then to delude themselves into thinking they can't be burnt, do something stupid and get completely charred.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
Well, if video games count as hobbies then the answer is in one of the questions above, the one about activities. One thing I forgot to mention whilst listing the games because I was focusing on listing them, was the sandbox/mission-editors. Those are my jam! Operation Flashpoint: Cold War Crisis' Mission Editor is what made me fall in love with video game development. I also like making various Arduino projects. What kind of question is that? Of course I like my hobbies! They wouldn't be my hobbies otherwise! Tsk, tsk, tsk...
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
Oh, if you mean the style in which I would like to be taught: top-down! Definitely top-down learning style! I cannot stand the standard bottom-up style of learning a vast array of information with no end-goal in mind. I can tolerate doing it, but my mind will see them as unnecessary, garbage and refuse to remember them as soon as the class is over. Then, at the end of the semester, when I get the whole picture, I go and learn the whole thing based on a top-down approach. It's also awful because it cripples creativity by giving people tunnel vision based on the techniques they've learned to do. Top-down is the complete opposite. With top-down, I have a picture of what I am working towards and can think about the problem in its entirety, can see what I need and can see how everything will fit together in the end. I can also think about what I could do to fill a gap and come up with a solution that's different than what would otherwise come to my mind if I had previously learned templates.
If you are asking about the style in which I study, I utilize the Feynman technique.
I generally dislike the university learning environment. Too crowded, too many distractions, front-row-seat battles, professors having tiny handwriting/quiet voices, etc. I would prefer being home-schooled or in a smaller classroom. Generally, tho, I like learning things by myself the most. When I am interested in something, and research about it, I tend to remember it much more easily.
Oh, all hail creativity and logic! To hell with memorization learning and flash-cards! I hate memorization/factual-oriented subjects. Physical senses? I like mixing things up and involving physical senses sometimes, as it helps with creating "memory hooks" and easier memorization. Never really consciously focused on learning muscle memory, tho...
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
Well, I can't really judge it myself. I'd say I'm alright, tho, but it depends on the scale. The bigger the scale, the harder it becomes, obviously. Yeah, I can break them into manageable tasks but can't really juggle them / multi-task as well as some people I know can. Nah, I like to be prepared and plan whenever I can. No plan survives contact with the enemy and thus, once I start, I plan on the plans failing and having to improvise as I go :P (as for the plans, I go in-depth with them and therefore I hate having last-second changes. They're the bane of my existence)
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
Professionally, to become powerful enough to not have to worry about being dependent on anyone and be able to pursuit my inventive curiosities, which in present day would mean climbing the corporate ladders and amassing enough passive income and wealth. Inventive curiosities are generally aimed towards improving quality of life for everyone (like biomedical advancements so that cripples could do everything a normal person could and so on).
Personally, to grow as a person and become the best version of myself and figure out the mysteries of life so that I can be and help others by mentoring them from my various experiences/knowledge and/or leading by example.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
Fears? Hm... I don't really have any huge fears aside from maybe being forced to serve under someone else's control and have them dictate my fate... Or, suddenly and irreversibly aging, like 50 years :P Yeah, lack of control makes me uncomfortable, but also being responsible for someone else's well-being (I get a kernel panic when someone hands me a baby over a hard surface. I avoid such events like the plague).
Hate? I hate incompetence and when people whine about their issues without solving them, when people ask me for insight / advice or present a problem and then get mad when I present to them the ugly truth that those things are all ultimately the consequence of their actions and that they will essentially need to change themselves fundamentally for those problems to go away (no matter how politely I do so), suck-ups and spineless doormat-people, people who refuse to accept that they are at fault, last-minute changes and the people who make them, people who shun anything out of the ordinary, mortality and biological limits or evolutionary left-overs, politics and puppet-masters, small-talk, loud parties and crowds, every bastard who lived in the apartment above and at the same time as me, religious zealots, warmongers, people who do weird shit for the sake of "being different" and most certainly not due to the intense cravings for attention, insensitive people / those who don't even think about thinking about how their actions will directly or indirectly affect other people, buzzing insects, and immature people (especially ENTPs :-* )... Among other things..
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
Jolly, bubbly all around? I don't have to worry about a thing and can just enjoy what-is. I become more sociable/extroverted and interested in people and extremely tolerable.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
Generally down on all fronts without a will to really do anything. Even more withdrawn/introverted and don't really care for coming across as nice (bitter/no filter). Complete apathy and rationality/hypercritical towards everyone and everything. Cynicism. No long-term planning or thinking about the consequences, just doing whatever to get my mind off of it (that includes, binging junk food, oversleeping, playing way too much video games, etc. Essentially shutting off my brain and going apeshit for bodily sensations) and doing things I normally would probably never do.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I like to think that I approach things from a bird's-eye point of view. I feel like I am well attached to reality, but am probably not, at least not in the degree that I think I am. Remember those "samples"? Well, I realized that the consequences from having a bad sample can be rather enormous, so as much as I love to have my head in the clouds, I try not to float away too high and I do my best to remember to glance under them from time to time. I do daydream, especially when bored, especially during uninteresting talk. People pointed out to me that I am oscillating between either freakishly locking onto them with my eyes (not in a threatening way, but in a "somewhat seductive" way which nonetheless makes them uncomfortable), and between having a thousand-yard stare. I try to be aware of my surroundings at all times but I drift off quite often and subconsciously get into a thinking pose, at which point a part of me becomes aware of it but the entirety of me refuses to care xD I am generally not aware of my surroundings whilst I do so, however. I mean, it's not that I am completely unaware. I am still aware, especially about whatever is going on in my unfocused vision, but nowhere near the prior intensity. Some things jolt me out of it, like something weird in front of me, or a weird sound, but I quickly return to the internal thinking after a brief investigation of the external. I try not to do it whilst walking - learned not to after a head-bump-too-many...
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
Either about humanity's quirks based on some recent thing I saw a stranger do in public, one of the things on my mental to-do-queue, how to solve a certain crisis/problem or if my mind really decides to give me a treat: one of, or a complete compilation of the humiliating/regrettable things I did X years ago when I didn't even know any better.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
I would like to answer that I try to take as long as I can, because in that time I might learn some new game-changing information, and then make the decision just before the time-limit expires - but the problem is that I go way overboard :D
I overthink it and take way too long. I don't necessarily change my mind, I just go "Well, this is my life now!" and try to make the best of it. I can't help but wonder, however, if I had made the right choice, and what would have happened if I picked a different option.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
Quite honestly, I have no idea what my emotions are like. I can only recognize the very basic ones in myself. I have no problems looking at a person and pinpointing the majority of theirs, tho. As for processing them, I think I retreat to my lair, lay/sit and "What the actual f\*ck am I doing?". I usually don't really pay attention to them until they're on the verge of bubbling over. Like, I'll only realize I'm actually pissed off when I notice my jaw is sore from being clenched or forehead muscles are cramped. Or, I'll only realize I'm feeling pretty down when I realize I've already wasted the whole day sleeping-in.
They're still pretty important, because even though I may not have any idea what I'm feeling, other people might not be like that for themselves, and I hate being someone's party-pooper. They're an essential part of the human condition. Some might even argue it's the only thing that makes us human. That might not be the case, but I'd argue that disregarding them would certainly neglect our humanity. I just wish I, and others, were more aware of our emotions and controlled them better (then again, would they even be emotions at that point?)
I have noticed that I generally, when making decisions (for example choosing what to buy), try to rationalize my choices and everything, but end up going with what I "like" half of the time xD
If I had to choose between a heart and a brain I'd do everything in my power to choose both as I think they're both essential for a healthy human - both figuratively and literally.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
I was guilty of doing this frequently in the past. I still do it, to a degree, but instead of outright agreeing with them I simply acknowledge their point of view and get them to expand upon it to better understand how they came to that conclusion. I still manage to keep the conversation going somehow, even if means shutting that topic down and moving to something else. (I don't really like hopping from one topic to another so rapidly). In the past, I'd do it as to "keep cool" with people, not endanger group harmony, and all that jazz - but I have learned over time to not really care if someone gets that butthurt about a simple disagreement in stances and that their inability to calmly debate about it is a sign of immaturity. Right now, I do it in the opposite case: I do it when I want to move the conversation along, convey a "I getcha, bro" and talk about something more interesting xD
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
Generally, I play by the rules, but if they make no goddamn sense, then breaking ensues. Authority always needs to be challenged! No man is above learning a new lesson, especially those with power over others and especially since times can change the ways of life. Rules designed for the world of today might not be a good fit for the world of tomorrow, therefore authority must be susceptible to change. When I break the rules, I break them because they are nonsensically restricting my freedom and I am not endangering anyone/anything, others had broken them and nobody is doing anything about it, or to save myself the time in a hurry. This is, of course not talking about things like competitions or games where everyone is playing fair and we just want to have a grand time. Tho, truth be told, I sometimes do it for shitz 'n' giggles :P
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That would be the questionnaire, now here are the cognitive function test results of two tests taken back-to-back. Te is ALWAYS typed as higher than Ti, and Ni is leading. What sometimes changes around are Te and Fe. For the most part, I have gotten Fe higher than Te, occasionally tied/close, and in such rare cases Te higher than Fe. There was one day a couple months back when I had to be very active with people and I typed having Te and Fe tied for first place, with Ni coming in second, but that was quite an anomaly. Se/Si are always the weakest of the bunch, with Se having a slight upper hand most of the time.
Thank you for taking your time to do this <3
Edit: Unintentional scrollbars from code-blocks
Submitted July 31, 2019 at 05:17AM by Te-tarded https://ift.tt/2YfXXyQ
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