So... I'm probably the type that shops to deal with being lonely/deal with grief and depression I guess. I'm alone a lot aside from when I'm taking care of my grandma and I have a few chronic health issues. Until my grandma's friends were around nobody really noticed that I liked to collect things/was a nail polish and makeup blogger but when I moved some of my family members threw a lot of my stuff out and so of course I panicked and tried to replace it all.
I feel really judged when people say I'm being wasteful or don't need my things, especially when they compare me to other people who have cars or tell me how much money people make an hour or what other things they spend their money on. The last state I lived in had determined me to be medically frail, not just due to my mental health (complex PTSD) but chronic kidney disease and multiple surgeries but nobody cares. I'm tired of being yelled at and judged all the time and I feel like nothing makes me happy except doing my makeup or nails or doing art or making jewelry or stuffed animals or things related to video games and I get made fun of by everyone for doing those hobbies. I get called a hoarder or told I'm just buying junk and then it makes me want to buy more stuff. I really don't see the difference between me buying what I buy and one person having several cars except somebody respects somebody with a bunch of cars more than me because they drive and I choose not to due to the medications I take and not wanting to cause an accident. Why is that so bad?
Submitted February 28, 2019 at 01:21AM by butterflyprism https://ift.tt/2Nzu3x4
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