First of all my English is not the best, I'm sorry if I am hard to understand.
How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself. I am a 24 year old female. I have a lot of hobbies that I'm really good at, like drawing, painting, playing piano/guitar, woodworking, just building stuff in general. I like to buy subscription boxes. Learning new languages. I'm not into gaming I feel like that is a waste of time, I rather do something productive. Oh I also love music I can listen music literally all day, while I'm working or doing something... I mean I HAVE to listen music.
Is there a medical diagnosis that impact your mental/comportamental stability somehow? I had depression for years since high school because of a lot of physical and emotional abuse from my parents but now everything is fine. I feel like now I can be happy.
Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it? I come from a Christian family, they were very strict when I was a child but not anymore. I still believe in God but no in the same hardcore way of my family. I'm more like a very open minded casual Christian. I don't hate or judge people because of what they do. But I do judge people based on how they treat others and how they react.
When I was a child my parents abused me a lot they constantly compared me to other children in a really harsh way. I remember this time when my parents told me "look at her she's taller than you, is because you don't eat, look at you all skinny and ugly." I never forgot about that. They did this to me almost every day, someone was always better or prettier so I tried to be smarter and useful, all the skills I've acquired is because I felt inferior to them and I wanted my parents tonlove me. But that never worked. Now I can say I am happy now...once I stopped looking for valdation from other people specially my family.
What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not? I am a housekeeper in a hotel, I actually have 2 jobs, because I am a BIG spender I save most of what I earn in a my first job to pay bills or an emergency. and I spent all other $950 that I earn each month from my second job in clothes, makeup, my pets, I'm never worried about money I can earn more.
I do love my first job because all the other housekeepers are very friendly and all other staff too. At first they didn't accept me I could feel it, but after 2 months they like me a lot because I always help them, also I guess I don't have very strong opinions like them, I can say that some of them they are a little bit phony and kind of passive aggressive, sometimes very nasty, but I know how to make them comfortable, I always try to understand why they act, they are very loud and kind of attention seekers(the kind of people that irritates me) at first I kept my distance but after having lunch with them and listening to them I realized that I kind of like them even if they have their shortcomings. I can get along with almost everyone and I know they genuinely appreciate me. I also like to help the guests and make sure they are comfortable.
Now in my second job I dislike a lot these people because they are lazy, they make a mess they don't care about the cleaning staff, how long is going to take them to clean all that. they are very selfish. I feel like they don't love their job. (they take care of old people or people with disabilities) also the boss doesn't care about me, or what I go through. the pay is not good.
If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed? I would love to be alone a few days, I feel like everyone is so clingy sometimes they depend of me a lot, and I need a break and just focus on myself, When I have a day off I like to get my hair done, my nails, taking care of my skin and watching movies or reading something, cleaning the house making sure everything is organized and taking care of my pets.
What is your relation with movement and your surroundings? For instance do you prefer a sport or outdoors event? If an outdoors event what is it? And why? If not what type of activities do you tend to engage i? I don't do sports, or outdoors events, I rather be in my house working on my hobbies or spending time with my boyfriend.
How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate? Yes I actually have a list of things I want to do but now is not the time.. maybe someday.
Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I don't think I would enjoy that much responsibility. I would like to help as much as I can but not being a leader. I think I could be a good leader If I trying hard enough but I'm not interested. I better at just following orders and carrying them perfectly.
Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity? I am, and yes I enjoy working with my hands like I said before building stuff, creating art. gives me a lot of fulfillment.
Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer. I think I am very artistic in general, I'm very good at drawing, specially at mixed media and water colors, I like to find references or poses just to make everything as realistic as possible. I like to use a lot of colors making something that would make someone smile and say "look how cute". My art looks either sweet or nostalgic.
What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them? I don't think a lot about the past or present, I'm always planning or daydreaming. Living in tge present is hard for me. I'm focused on the future, for example I think I have to work hard for my future children and grandchildren, everything I do right now is going to impact the future.
How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so? I'm always happy to help, I get some kind fulfillment, I love helping, I find strength and healing in helping and giving. I never expect anything back or any praise but is nice when people appreciate what I do for them. I also help people even if I don't like them a lot, I'm not the type that holds grudges I forgive very easily.
How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go? I like breaking up big projects into small tasks because I can get overwhelmed sometimes, I like to one thing at a time and keep track of everything. I want to make steady progress toward my goals. I love to do lists and apps that help me with my tasks because I get distracted very easily and I lose track of the time.
What's important to you and why? My boyfriend and my pets, I can only think about our future together, I really love him he's the only one that stayed when I really needed help, he loves me unconditionally, I am usually very nice but I do have a anger issues and he's very good at handling my temper tantrums, he is a lot like me. ( I suspect he's a INFP) I have a lot of pets I like taking care of them they are like my babies, they cheer me up when I'm having a bad day.
What are your aspirations? I want to be emotionally and financially stable, I'm working really hard to buy a multi family home so I can rent it, I don't want to depend on my boyfriend I don't like depending on others I don't want anything I didn't earn myself. I want to be a good person in general, raise good children, I want to have a happy marriage, I want to know what it feels like to have a real loving family.
What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why? My fear is not being loved, for example I'm afraid of someone cheating on me or just leaving me after investing a lot of effort and time. or being assaulted or murdered lol. I hate dealing with rude, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic or aggressive people. Sometimes people try to bully me for no reason... maybe I look very innocent or stupid and they think I wont fight back and then I turn into raging b*tch because of all the abuse I went through when I was a child I can be very aggressive. that doesn't happen very often but I do have strong emotions is hard to think. I hate when people make me feel anger, I also feel very ashamed afterwards and disappointed in myself.
How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I daydream a lot to the point I'm not aware of my surroundings I bump into things and hit my head, I'm full of bruises, I almost got hit by a once car too. sometimes I don't hear people talking to me until they touch and tell me "are you ok?".
I hope that is enough to type me. Thanks!
Submitted October 15, 2019 at 02:47AM by mininina95 https://ift.tt/2IRpaht
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